10:21 PM

I feel so empty and lost.
February started off with a lousy note for so many people; I'm afraid that it's a sign or something. It's my birth month after all. Please let things get better by mid-february, or else I'll feel even more empty and disappointed.

I think I'm going to cry myself to sleep tonight or something. I just lost my temper at laopo. Fuck everything that's happening. That bastard at my house kept nagging non stop at me last night, so I couldn't control myself and shouted for him to shut up. Then he kept shouting at me?
zzz, I feel so down again.

Bloody february. I'll forsake my birthday, valentine's day, chinese new year, anything, just to make sure everyone's happy.

I'm a bloody failure lah, even maid also showing attitude. Slam window and draw the curtain so loudly. Fuck you lah, bloody maid. Always show attitude. Screw you.

Please please please let things get better, people on top. You've always been watching over me, please keep on doing so. I need you so bad, I need the faith and courage to keep going.

I know I've asked for this on many occassions, but can I have the gift of love for my birthday? Or simply just happiness will do. Let me be happy for a very very long time, and let people be nice to me all my life.

I'm so tired now. I feel so numb inside. It's like I'm just living with my shell, and the rest of my insides are dying. ):

I'm gonna sleep soon. Goodbye.

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