9:11 PM

I shall be nice and give credits to jie shi and ben for all the fun we've had today. (:

& rest in peace, jh.
We all loved you.

♥

8:36 PM

Wheee, shall entertain you with photos first kay? (x




We had ssrp, then the boys in my class started playing with joon houng's photo. :D
Super funny and creative right! (x But I think we made joon houng quite pissed lah. Lalala, but it's all out of good funnnnn! Okay, I hope I won't get my karma by saying this. =/
But hell, my class boys can really think of crazy things to do, and I so bloody love them. <3

Science test after school. Eh, I think it's quite easy because everything that I've studied on during ssrp came out. xP WHEEEEEE, I hope I scored well. And I didn't go for consultation today! Because consultation ends at 3.30, and it was already 3++ when we were dismissed. I bet no one turned up for the consultation anyway!

& C BOYS WON THEIR MATCH! :D
Haha, hanwee was nice enough to lend me his pe t-shirt, so I played volley with them. :D Super big lah, the shirt. So I kept zao gng-ing. :P Yeap, then stayed at the volleyball court till 6++ before leaving with simin to buy bubble tea and then home. (x

It must be the sun, because you looked damn right even when I know you're not.
I've missed you for all the times that I don't see you.

♥

8:57 PM

I feel stupid, getting myself into situations like this.

I need help from above to give me the courage to keep loving. ):

The going's getting so tough now, I think I'm getting the hint. He isn't bloody interested to even talk. I should prolly just go fuck myself or something.

Maybe I'm reading too much into things, most probably not.

I failed my maths test, and I'm very very tired and moody now.
So no updates today.

Keep reading this post over and over again, and you'll feel just as miserable as me.
Science test and consultation tomorrow.

Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong?
Bah, whatever.
I hate myself when I'm moody.
GO FUCK YOURSELF. RAWR.

P.S; for those people who can't find their way around, please click on I SEE RAINBOWS to navigate.

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9:25 PM

OMG, WHAT THE HELL?

OOOOOH, BLOODY DIU LIAN.
RAWR. )x

ZOMG, ZOMG, ZOMG.
Relax, relax.

Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out. x100

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG, I'm so gonna hyper ventilate again!
><

♥

8:40 PM

:D LOVE ISN'T EVERYTHING!

Played volleyball during PE today! NOT ON FORM! BAHHHHH.
Chinese after PE, then jane told me it's jun hui's birthday, so I was being retarded and turned around, smile at him, give the victory sign and said happy birthday, jun hui a lot of times. xD
Then he asked jaron to change place with him, because he couldn't tahan my craziness.
OHOHOH, and I didn't fail my chinese test can! In fact, I think I scored super well! 37/50! TYCO DAO SIAO! NONO, it's SKILL!

Went to the market after school with baohui, jiayu, max, twinny and amos. I watched them have lunch because I wasn't feeling hungry. Yeap, then went back to school to play volleyball without twinny, because he left for vivo city to celebrate his primary school friend's birthday.

Played till around 4+, we all took a rest and then jiayu they all wanted to play pool, so they went to look for mr ling. HAHA, but he's super mean lah! Say wait one sec, then they ended up waiting for like an hour or so? HEH. I was smarter! I went to play volley with hui cheng, deb and wei yi!

Chia meng they all were there also, but he wasn't! ): Aye, they played soccer with volleyball, then I kept passing the ball back to them by kicking, then chia meng said no one will like me, because I was super rough. Then kept saying that he'll complain to li en. LOL, very gay lah.

At around 6, went to look for jiayu to play pool! SUPER FUN! :D Jiayu and I played against max and amos. HAHA, we lost one game, and won one. xD BUT THE PROCESS WAS SUPER FUNNY, AND THAT MADE ME SUPER DUPER DUPER HIGH. Amos and max kept doing those bad imitation of rain dancing and made jiayu and I laugh lah! SUPER GAYYYYYYY.
Then at around 7, went to return the cue sticks and BALLS to mr ling. Jiayu used the cue sticks to kiap my head. People childish, thought cue sticks were chopsticks mah, cannot blame. HAHAHAHAH!

Left for mac after that. Max and I bought mcflurry! Jiayu extra, went to buy vanilla cone and amos left for home. EH, THAT RHYMED! Okay, sorry. Super high now, cannot help it. Ya, then Max and I crossed over to the bus stop and waited for 130 together. (: Theeeen, when I reached shaw plaza, I raaaaaaan all the way home. HAHA, I reached home at 7.57! Then finished showering and blowing dry my hair at 8.13. SUPER FAST RIGHT! xD

Heh heh, I feel so xing fu again. :D
Ogaaaaay, off I go then. Super long post again today.
xD

♥

5:27 PM

I just finished reading jasmine's blog, and then you can see all the I love you here and there. ):
Aye, I'm very very very envious please! Wo ye xiang xing fu, dan ni bu ken gei.
What to do, love doesn't look my wayyyy. :D

I feel quite relaxed now. Wo hao xiang hui man man xue zhe fang xia le. (:
Don't knowwwww. Since he doesn't want to give me a reply, then like. Forget it lah.

For my birthday, I think I'll like anything anyone gives me. Must be contented with what you have, and try not to ask for more. (: I don't mind huge massive soft toys, or chocolates, or li en.

But there's one thing... MY XING FU! :D

ZONG YOU YI TIAN YI DING DENG DE DAO!

♥

12:14 PM

All he said was, "sorry for not replying your message."

I guess he'll never reply.

♥

6:22 AM

Woke up at 5.34am, replaying all the scences in my head. I haven't gotten your reply, I can't give up, and I can't jump for joy. But I'll wait, however long you'll take. All the way till my birthday. I deserve to be happy on my special day, so I'll try my very best to forget every single thing about you.

I'm having fever again.. ):
I miss valval fussing over me. (:

I'm going now, peeeee-pooooooo.
SAYONARA.

♥

10:36 PM

You may think you're nothing,
but you mean the world to me.

Open your eyes and see,
I'm just right behind you.

♥

10:11 PM

KBOX!





We got room 18. (: MY NUMBER!


PHOTOS FROM SCIENCE LESSON ON... WED OR THURS.




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8:31 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JUNSHENG!
& I LOVE COCONUT SHOE EN EN MANY MANY. :D

Today was greeeat fun man! xD
With the exception of the stupid maths test, which I'm probably going to fail.. ):
Keith told the joke of the day today.

Keith: Eh, cb is here or here ah? -pointing to his nipples then his private part below-

Bloody hell? This kind of question also ask! He has spouted too much vulgarities already. So much so that he's forgotten which part he's referring to.
If you're curious why he would ask that all of a sudden, it's because jeremy and keith were saying that a certain prawn's body has a lot of rashes, then jeremy said that if she fucked, her cb will definitely hurt. That's when keith got confused. We were all like, what the hell?!

You have to hear it yourself before you'll get what I mean. CLASSIC MAN! And then my english's also getting very london.
Jeremy, keith and junwei were saying that your butt will vibrate if you sat with your legs open when you talk. So I tried, but I couldn't feel anything, so I said that my butt's too meaty. Then realised that it actually means that I'm fat, so I changed to muscly. Then they were all like, muscly?! MUSCULAR LAH!

HAHA, I love them super duper duper much man! Then during recess, the first person I saw when I walked into the canteen was him. Aye, you yuan wu fen ah! Lalala, then I was super high and kept jumping around while queuing for food beind jiayu and twinny. :D

Then when I sat down, he walked away already. So yeah.. thought he went for PE or something. After finishing the food, went to buy drink from the vending machine. Then saw him again! SHI BU SHI YOU YUAN WU FEN! xD

During science lesson, junwei suddenly shouted LI EN! Then I was like, where, where! Turned out that he was downstairs with zi xiang, probably doing some volleyball admin stuff bah. Watched him all the way, till he went to the sec 1 classes and finally disappeared. (:

After school, saw him AGAIN. BAAAAAH. Haha, wasted a lot of time deciding where to go, then finally went to meet junsheng and aaron with chloe and deb. We walked to amk central then deb left us, and we went kboxing!

WAHAHAHAHHA! SUPER FUN LUHS! SO MUCH SO THAT I'M GOING TO WRITE THE WHOLE THING IN CAPS. (x WE'VE SUNG AT LEAST 50 SONGS IN 5 HOURS MAN! THEN WE WERE UTTERLY HIGH WHILE SINGING WU SUO WEI BY 5566. WE WERE JUMPING AROUND, SINGING/SHOUTING/SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF OUR VOICES, ALMOST FORCING OUR LUNGS OUT AND WEARING OUT OUR CALF MUSCLES. (:

I LOOOOOOOVE KBOXING WITH THEM PLEASE! I'M NOT EVEN ASHAMED TO USE THE MIC EVEN THOUGH I KNOW MY VOICE SUCKS. JUNSHENG AND AARON WERE SUPER KIND. THEY PAID MORE THAN HALF OF MY SHARE OF THE BILL FOR ME BECAUSE I WAS BROKE. I LOVE PEOPLE FROM 2/4 LAH! SUPER NICE PEOPLE.

SANG DUET WITH CHLOE, AND WE COULD DUET EVEN WHEN THE SONG WAS SUNG ONLY BY ONE PERSON. ONE LINE EACH. SUPER COOL LAH! SHE HAS VERY NICE VOICE. (x THE WAITERS THERE WERE DAMN CUTE ALSO. ONE KEEPS TALKING TO US, THEN THE OTHER ONE LOOKED AT ME WHILE I WAS SINGING, SO I STARTED SINGING TO HIM. HAHAH!

WE ALL ZAO XIA-ED A LOT OF TIMES ; BUT WE DON'T CARE! WU SUO WEI MAH! xDDDDDDDDDDD DON'T BE JEALOUS OF ALL THE FUN WE'VE HAD. HAHAHA!

SUPER HAPPY TODAY LAH! EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT... BAH, NOT GONNA TELL YOU. ONLY CHLOE KNOWS. (:
SO I'M HOME NOW, TYPING THIS POST, AND ZI HIGH-ING. WOOOT!
GOING OUT WITH THINTHIN TOMORROW I THINK. TO MALAYSIA. SHE'S CARRYING ME OVER TO GENTING, BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SWIM. HAHAHAHAHAH!
OKAY, GONNA DO OTHER THINGS ALREADY.
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, PEEEEEE-POOOOOOOO! LOVE YOU ALL!

P.S ; this is a very very very long post. (x If you managed to finish it, you deserve to be awarded. (:

♥

9:10 PM

:D

Nan zi han, na de qi, fang de xia!
WO FANG XIA LE ba!

Meeting up with naipeng and ade soon!
SUPER HIGH AND COOL.
<333333

♥

5:56 PM

RAWR, I need a distraction of some sort. ):
Wait for him wait till I'm going crazy already.
He's freaking good looking, and that's bloody fatal.
Plus he wears braces.

OKAAAAY. HELLO, I LOVE MY IMAGINARY BF.
(:

Zomg, I'm effin freaky now. ><

Rah, whateverrrrrrr.

♥

9:05 PM

OH OH OH!

VBALL 'C' BOYS '07!

JIAYOU MAN! I'M YOUR BIGGEST SUPPORTER EVER. I EVEN FEEL NERVOUS FOR YOU BEFORE THE MATCH. PLEASE BOND! I LOVE YOU ALL SUPER DUPER MUCH. PLEASE GET THROUGH THE ZONALS, I WANNA WATCH YOU ALL PLAY!
(:

Losing isn't an option for the rest of the matches. DO YOUR BEST KAY!

♥

8:30 PM

HEY YAH!
Got caught by mrs yeo for uniform. She complained about my skirt being too short, and my shirt being too tucked out when it actually isn't! RAWR, then I'm supposed to see her tomorrow morning. I'm so gonna tuck everything in and borrow valval's skirt. THAT WILL SHOW HER!

Then vball c boys left for their match during lesson time. When I turned around, cannot see jeremy and di di, felt quite empty you know. ): Aye, too used to them being there already. Without their gayness and nonsense, it's super boring please.

Then after school, went to play netball with the recrea team netball girls. Aye, haven't been training for so long, now I can barely catch my breath after one game! Super weak can! ): NAPFA 2.4 cannot make it le lah. Last year still can come in 2nd or 3rd in class. If I can still make it to top 10, I'll be super happy already. Haha! :D

Then played till around 4+, went to keep balls with chloe tan, and saw him! (: HAO REN YOU HAO BAO MAN! HAHA. Then went to library, then met peachie and agnes, then tailed behind him and his friends to the bus stop. x) BUT, I think he took 13 to avoid me. Lalala ~ Neh mind. (x

Took 130 to shaw plaza and had heart to heart talk with peachie. (: Talked a lot, and felt so much better about everything. I love heart to hearts. :D Took a bus home after that.
Yeah, and now I'm talking to him online. (:

Haha, still got homework undone. But whatever, do later. (;
Off I go now!

P.S ; sorry for the boring content and bad english. )x

♥

9:07 PM

THE BIRTHDAY LIST
1. SHUE LI EN!
2. CASH!
3. BE HAPPY!
4. BAG!
5. SHOES!
6. WALLET!
7. CLOTHES!
8. BECOME SMARTER!
9. SHUE LI EN!
10. SHUE LI EN!

All materialistic things, please come to me for confirmation first. Other than that, it's all AFFIRMATIVE! :D

I know I can get super high and super emo. But what matters is that I'm super high now! :DDDDDD
BE HAPPY, PEE-POOOOO! (x
♥

8:14 PM

I think I've been living too comfortably already. So much so that when mummy told me that she might have to quit her current job because her ego's being bruised by her boss and we might have to scrimp and save, my world sort of came tumbling down.

It certainly feels like it now. I have no idea why I spend money so quickly! I'm only left with 20cents can?
For my birthday present, can I have money please? I don't want anything else lah, seriously. I need cash. I'm friggin broke now. ):
Unless anyone of you can give me him as birthday present..

AYE, I DON'T KNOW! Daniel told me that he's had a stead before. I thought he's never ever had one?! WHAT THE HELL CAN.

My world comes crumbling down ~ Wonderful, I wonder who's that lucky girl..

OKAYSZXSXZ.

♥

4:50 PM

I'm not xing fu. ):

Xing fu is when I'm with you.
So no you, no xing fu.
li en.

I feel so tired and down, please give me a sign, please say something mean ; just to make me give up. No, forget about signs, I don't read, that's why I held on for this long. Just tell me, you'll never ever ever like me.
I don't wanna think about you again. Your smile, the way you spike, the way you shy away, the way you look, the way you walk, the way you talk, the way you breathe. I don't want it in my mind any more.
Let this be an infatuation ; please walk out from my mind. I need someone new, someone to keep my mind off of you.

♥

5:55 PM

http://kevan.org/johari?name=orangie!
Please do it for me. (:
DEB, YOU HAVE TO DO.
Because I did it for you.

♥

5:09 PM

I almost got headbutt-ed by a bird when I was on my way to meet peachie at shaw plaza just now. ):







DOGGIE'S AS BIG AS MY PALM! :D

Even though he simply doesn't want to owe me anything, that's why he gave me the dog, I still feel super xing fu.
WO HUI KAI XIN DE! (x

Wah, I'm getting so cheena now. ><

Okay, I'm off to do my d&t.

♥

11:55 AM

YAY, I've editted my blog!
But I'm not sure if it's just my laptop or my hair is really missing a few pixels in the picture on the left.
Oh, and anyways, I'm trying to portray bellelovesyou, not that I'm narcissistic or anything. HAHA, okay. We all know that I love myself damn much. (x

& YOU KNOW, LI EN GOT ME SOMETHING IN RETURN FOR THE CHOCOLATES I GAVE HIM!

I'm xing fu dao can die man! :D

Meeting peachie later to get it, and to see the doctor.

YAYYYYY. I LOVE TODAY.

♥

8:28 AM

I just reached home not long ago. :D

Due to the very spicy food that I've consumed yesterday, I'm down with very bad cramps and slight fever. I think people up there's trying to save me from nantha or something, because I didn't finish my d&t homework. Haha, plus I saw LI EN today when I was waiting for my parents to fetch me. 7.21am sharp. (x

See, wo shi xing fu de. Even when I'm going home, I can still see him. Tsk, we are fated! :P I'm so gonna miss watching him play vball.

Okay okay, must not talk about him so much! CONTROL! (:

Eh, I'm going to try to photoshop now. My photoshop skills suck cock lah, unlike big butt's. ): Her blog's super pretty kay! I love spongebobbieeeee. Heh, I am gayyyy! :D

OH YA, and I got my pretty pumas yesterday. ^^
Photos later. I'm lazy to upload now. Heehee.

♥

11:13 AM

zzz.
I hate my parents.

BLOODY FUCK LAH.

10:43 AM

I'm going for retail therapy today.

I'm seriously going mad.

I made big friend angry last night, I apologised, and haven't gotten any reply. ):
Big friend, I still love you okay?

& I think I'm just going to leave him alone for now.
I wish I could do it.

♥

1:24 PM

LET'S ALL BE MATERIALISTIC NOW ;

since there's no point in holding on to any beliefs of any sorts.

See, being materialistic is actually easier because you can make yourself happy by shopping! I think I'll be the happiest person on earth because I can be darn materialistic if I want to. :D



Okay, I think psycho-ing myself that way isn't working. ):
If it's an infatuation like big friend says, it's taking waaaaaay to long.

I miss your smile, your voice, the way you spike and the way it leaves marks on my arms.

♥

11:45 AM

I'm both excited and not excited about my birthday.
Guess it's because it falls on cny, and my relatives like to act as if they don't know it's my birthday, so I probably won't be getting any presents from them.
& I'm a sucker for presents. Like, it's your special day, of course you would like presents right? If I don't get any, or I get only one or two, I'll get very disappointed and prolly cry myself to sleep at night.
But, if LI EN's there for me on my birthday, I don't think I'll mind not getting any presents at all. (:
However, it's quite out of the picture, so yeah..
1 more day to kok how's pay day.
Which means..
MY PRETTY PUMAS!

:D

my perfect braces boy ; day 10.

♥

6:15 PM

Haha, okay this is not late.

Went for sakae buffet, and it was a waste of money because I couldn't eat much. ): I was stuffed to the brim by the time I reached my 6th plate and I almost died.

Then talked a lot over at sakae lah, super funny can! :D

We finally left sakae at around 5+.

Yeah, and I saw him today. More like peep at him.
I think I'm getting so psychotic. If it was me eating a bowl of noodles and some crazy moronic ass keeps peeping at me, I'll go crazy and never ever fall for that person.

So, I must put myself in his shoes and stop doing things like that. It's really freaking freaky.

Okay, ending here, because I'm tired and love sick again.
I wish he would open his eyes, heart and mind and just let me sink in. ):

♥

8:52 AM

Hello, I'll probably blog quite late again tonight because peachie's coming back from camp and I'm going to go for sakae buffet with her.

Aye, no idea what time she'll be reaching school also lah. That girl asked me to go for buffet, but didn't tell me what time she'll be coming back.

& I'll be seeing him again I hope.

With him gone for a few days, I've learnt to manage my feelings better. Not thinking about him every second. I think it's a bloody good improvement can! :D

Okay, blogging from school lab, so I'll have to go now. (x

my perfect braces boy ; day 9.

♥

7:01 PM

HELLO, BELLEBELLE IS SUPER HAPPY TODAY.

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MILY BABY!

Went for the school trip today to chinatown and orchard. Camwhored a lot, and I took pretty photos of the buildings and stuff! :D

PHOTOS!







Went to meet emily, nutty and kok how after the trip. Hsiao pei, benjamin, kok how's gf and friend joined us after that. Then we had lunch, then nutty and hsiao pei has to leave for j8, kok how's gf and friend have to leave for home. So, we left for j8 with them.

Had a lot of fun talking about relationship stuff with emily and kok how. It's really direct and straight to the point. Guess we've all grown up and stuff. Every year we meet, we grow up a little, and I guess we love each other more. I couldn't bear to leave them you know, because we were having so much fun talking. But they say all good things have to come to an end, so we parted at around 6.40?

Yeap, I'll just end here. Rather tired now. (x

REPLY TO TAGS! Since I can't tag on my tagboard because of I don't know why.
<3kenshin ; ayeeee. don't bother so much about it please.
<3simin ; xD OKAY!
<3val ; valval is so mean! i think i'll love him too much to even THINK about ditching him lorh.
<3emokid ; haha! everyone likes li en? :P

my perfect braces boy ; day 8.

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1:04 PM

Aye, I just went to read his testimonials, then I saw agnes's testimonial to him. I think she isn't over him yet! ):

I don't think I stand a chance already lah, people wait so long, if he wants to choose, also choose the one that's prettier, nicer, knows him longer/better and talks to him normally what. Why choose the one who can't find anything to talk about, fell for him on the first day she met him and confessed, and then keep bugging him and talk nonsense and gave him chocolates on the 6th day she knows him.

NO REASON RIGHT! )))):

Should I just move along now?

♥

9:53 AM

I JUST BLOGGED AT WESTYLEMAOS! :D

I STILL LOVE THE MAOS VERY VERY MUCH.

You've never been far from my mind ; you're like a constant thought. Maybe, if only.. things didn't turn out this way. The chocolates would have been for you, and it would have been our fifth month together. It's my fault. Some how, some way, I could say I hate you a million times, but my heart doesn't feel the same. Maybe I love you still, or maybe it's nostalgia. You have her now, so I shan't say more. & it's really a pity we couldn't get our bears. It would have been nice if we had something to remind each other of what we were, then perhaps I wouldn't have given up on our relationship so soon. It's all full of possibilities, because nobody knows for sure. I'll leave it as it is now, but I have a feeling - that it will all come back.
Moving on now.

♥

9:35 AM

E-learning sucks cock!
Sec 3 camp is even worse!

It's not like I don't like missing lessons and all, it's just that there really isn't anything to do at home and I can't even see him playing volleyball now. ):

Hope he's well and having fun..

my perfect braces boy ; day 7.

♥

8:26 PM

Went to buy jia ming's present after school today with peachie, deb, simin and chloe at j8. Then chloe left us, and I bought chocolates for LI EN. Then after peachie finished her food, we went back to school to pass jia ming his present and LI EN his chocolates.

Left with peachie to buy her dad's birthday cake, because she won't be at home to celebrate his birthday. ):

Went home after that.

Then at 5.53 sharp, received message from jia ming and LI EN saying thanks. LI EN's one came first, then jia ming's. I thought they were standing together to sms me or something lah, haha!

I was super happy when LI EN sms-ed me lah, then jia ming told me that he shared the chocolates with his team mates. Wah, I almost banged my head against the wall can.

I'm not sure if he's really stupid, or simply just refused to acknowledge the fact that I like him. ): Either ways, it's really sad and disappointing. He did say sorry, but like, what's done cannot be undone, so yeah.. ))):

Then it's like I wanted to find things to talk about but he didn't sound very keen, so I just told him to take care for his camp tomorrow. Then he replied, and that's the end.

I'll miss him like crazy when he's gone..

Peachie too.

my perfect braces boy ; day 6.

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6:43 PM

))))))))))))))):

I'd do anything.

But you just wouldn't give me the chance to.

my perfect braces boy ; day 5.

♥

8:51 PM

Went out with peachie today to the library, but of course I didn't meet him.
I swear I looked like a walking daylight zombie then. Sigh. ):
Then she left to meet benson, nijun etc etc, so I left for my aunty's house.
Peachie was sweet lah, she messaged me asking if I've reached home yet, something she's never done before. Hmmm, guess I really look that bad.

Talked to my cousin, and felt better, then as time passes, I went back to the zombie mode again.
But but but, I love alfred. We disturbed our younger cousin together, because he's not really liked, then kept denying that it's us. I know it's mean, but we knew when to stop okay.

Aye, seriously, how am I going to live without peachie? Have to go to school without her, go home without her, do everything without her. ):

Chocolatie without peachie = bitter chocolate.

AYE, I TRIED TO BE HAPPY ALREADY.

♥

10:11 AM

OH, I JUST REMEMBERED THAT SEC 3S ARE HAVING THEIR CAMP!

Three days without peachie and LI EN. I think I can go bang my head against the wall already lah. ):

I'll try to be sick next year when there's camp, because I cannot stand leaving the comfort of home. I know I'm gay. (:

♥

9:47 AM

460th post.

LI EN loves to bring my mood up and down, if it goes on and on, I might not be able to pull through, you know. Like one moment, he can be telling me to give up and all that, and the next moment, he tells me I'm funny, and I take funny as a compliment and a sign of affection.

See, high tide, and low tide. I actually needed retail therapy in the morning, but at night, he makes me so happy that I smiled all the way through the night, until I fell asleep. I dreamt of him also, and I woke up very early, at 7.47 at the very thought of him. But if nothing's gonna come out of it, then I think he shouldn't be giving me false hope. It kills. ):

He lives at toa payoh, and I'm just a walk away from toa payoh, and he has to take 88, and I can choose to. Imagine if we're together, then we can take the same bus home, talk on the way, laugh at our silliness and just hold hands all the way through. How very romantic... Then maybe he could send me home some times too. Haha, okay. I'm thinking too much. A girl can dream, can't she?

I wanna go to the library today to return my books! Overdue for over two weeks already! T^T EH, MAYBE IF FATE ALLOWS, I MIGHT MEET HIM THERE! :D

my perfect braces boy ; day 4.

♥

3:29 PM

I got rejected, but I'm not going to be defeated so soon.

But I probably should lay low for the moment, lest I appear too insistent.
Remember, he wants us to just be friends.

Guess that's the reason why someone like him is still single and available; no, he's not waiting for me to appear, he just don't want to be in a relationship.
Still, it's ironic how he told me that it depends on how I win him over. Guess I lost. ):

My heart swells for you.

I'll wait on, because it's you.

♥

8:41 AM

Aye, I hope LI EN will sms me first today, because I don't know what to say, and I feel retarded. Or else I'll just have to survive today without LI EN. ):

Sigh, I want my pretty puma shoes! Gonna psycho kok how to go out to get my shoes, or else I'll have to wear my wet wet adidas shoes to school again, which I don't want to.

I WANT MY PUMAS! :D

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8:49 PM

WTH! I WROTE A VERY LONG POST, BUT THERE WAS A PROBLEM WITH MY CONNECTION, THEN THE POST WAS GONE. I THOUGHT BLOGGER WAS SUPPOSED TO SAVE MY POST? ):

FORGET IT, DON'T FEEL LIKE BLOGGING ALREADY!

6:39 PM

:D

LI EN, LI EN, LI EN!

He brings my mood up and down.

More after I finish showering!


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7:14 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FOREST!
<3

LI EN, LI EN, LI EN!

Watched baohui and co. play pool today after school, then after that, went to watch them play volleyball. Started playing only after junwei left. Super fun lah, haven't played for don't know how long already, and I finally gotten the chance to. Played with jiayu, amos and twinny.

LI EN and zi xiang joined us after a while, then that zi xiang kept talking nonsense non stop, very irritating. zzz. BUT, continued to play because of LI EN. xD I love the way he spikes at me, and the way he sets/digs for me to spike. :D I felt super xing fu lah!

Left at around 5+ for home with jiayu, twinny and amos. Was hoping LI EN would come to my side of the bus stop, then I can ask him for his number, but then... ): he didn't come. BUT, never mind, calvin's helping me ask junhao, and peachie's helping me ask chiameng. xD

I LOVE LI EN!


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10:00 PM

MY FOREST TURNS FOURTEEN IN ABOUT TWO HOURS.

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I wanna join volley! Calvin's darn good at psycho-ing.

8:52 PM

& it's still so very pretty.

Went to j8 after school today with jeremy lim, bao hui, derrick and han wee to shop for presents. Went for lunch at food junction first, then to 77th street to shop. Then jeremy fought with me to buy derrick's pencil case, and he won, so I have to buy derrick a wallet instead. Then he's buying a wallet for me in return also. xD

Met simin and chloe tan, then walked around for a while, bought renee's present and then went to the void deck near the court. My maths really cannot make it, keep asking simin how to do.
RAWR, I wanna do well this year and get into chem class!

Played basketball for a while, then bubble tea, then basketball again, then home. Then there's this super cute guy at the court. Black shirt boy! :D WEIZHI. HOTNESSSSSSSSSSSS.
Can't help staring please. Tai hao kan le, too bad he doesn't wear braces. BUT, still cute. I'll dream of him every night from now, until I get sick of it. xDDDDDD

Okay, end of post. :D

Deb's gonna get me tamagotchi for birthday!

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12:14 PM

I COULD KILL MY LAPTOP PLUS MODEM AGAIN AND AGAIN IF I COULD. IT KEEPS DISCONNECTING! SUPER IRRITATED.
RAWR.

But I still don't get the meaning of val's personal message. Catch no balls, you know? xP

& I have nothing to do now because MSN refuses to work and I'm done with my blog.

People up there, please be kind and drop me some interesting people that I actually don't have any problem communicating with. I realised recently that I've became so boring that I don't have any witty/intellectual replies for people. Guess that's the reason why conversations with people don't usually last very long. ):

Hopefully thinthin's personal message isn't for me and val will explain hers.

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5:32 PM

On the third day of school, my twinny gave to me ; a gentle pat on the head and that makes me happy.

:D

Hope the boys had fun at the cca open house.

Oh, and I edited my blogskin, hope it's alright?

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7:32 PM

MUST NOT SWING!

OHHKAYYYYY.

I'm better at managing my emotions this year. Or maybe I don't care any more.

HECKKKKKK TO EVERYTHING.



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6:58 PM

On the second day of school I'm hit by waves of pain, guilt and regrets.

I think I'm starting to love the two behind me. (:

If only I went for training during the holidays, I wouldn't have drifted so much from my former team mates. Now I feel as if they really hate me to the core. But at least I managed to get out of the demanding cca.
Then there's my qing ai de-s and my twinny. BUT never mind. Maybe it's because it's the first week of school, and we haven't quite gotten used to seeing each other yet...

OKAY, no swinging now. I'm alright.

Love you all still.


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7:26 PM

On the first day of school my misfortune came to me, one great fall and a whole lot of bruises on my limbs.
):


my heart bleeds and cries, but no one sees or hears...
never thought you could mean so much ;
i lost.
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