Friday, November 17, 2006
11:08 PM
I think I'm emo?
Okay, suckiness. It's like I feel this way every few days.
SECONDARY SCHOOL SUCKS.
I feel insignificant, taken for granted, good for nothing, just a burden, nothing at all.
I don't know why, but I think jiayu, norman, bao hui, juncheng and a lot of other boys just ask me along to things only because it seems polite.
I don't know why, but I feel important with them some times, only during bad times... I don't know. Don't think they read my blog at all now.
I think the friendship shared between jane, liko, renee and I was very short-lived and only for show.
I think everyone's getting very irritated by my emo-ness, so I might be closing down the blog.
I think I'm very pathetic.
But I think I'm better than someone whom I shall not name, lest I get bombarded.
I think if killing is not a crime, I would have killed a thousand and one people by now.
I think I'm too nice.
I think I'm stupid.
I think my friends don't really cherish me.
I think I'm really just living for the sake of living.
I think I'm very afraid that I'm never ever going to be able to find true friends until I turn 78.
I think I'm very afraid that I'm never ever going to find that right person to love.
I think I'm very easily forgotten.
I think deb has forgotten about me.
I think jan too.
I think derrick thinks about me less than once a month.
I think to others, I'm just annabelle, and nothing else.
The most, only an acquaintace or someone that's very dislikable.
I think peach only treats me as someone to look for when no one else is available.
I think fartsie is nice to me only because I'm nice to her and like her very much.
I think andy hates me a lot.
I'm sure this is the best post I've written in this month that reflects how I really feel inside.
I feel like junk.