4:03 PM

HELLO(:
I just came back from orchard.
Went to pedicure, which was later ruined by my stupid shoes. Blah, never mind, but my feet are really pretty now. :D
& I bought a top from M industrie!
You see, what I want, I get! :D
I'm HAPPAYE.
That's one item off my list.
Shall work work work and get the other items on my list. (x
Okay, going to slack off now.
BYEBYE.

7:34 PM

I feel super unwell now.
Feel like vomiting! :(
WHY, OH WHY.
Only tio now.
Fuckkkk.
Unwell.
Puke.
zzz.
):

6:43 PM

You got that special way of making me happy, fartsie.(:

School's super slack today, because people are being asked to go to the hall in between classes, so there aren't much teachers could do, so classes were more or less free periods, just with the supervision of teachers. (: So cool!
I miss Valval. ): Come back soon, xin gan. Life in class is so difficult without you.
We were dismissed at 12.20 today. Went to get ice cream. Haha! Then went to oneFIVE. Gah, poor Jan. Cheer up, baby! x)
Met qing ai de-s at Mac. :D Was supposed to study, but I just talked and talked and talked non stop. (: Sorry, I just can't stop talking after I've started! I went on and on about random things.
Then at around 3, went to tp with peach, benson and nickman. Gah, boys are irritating. We walked around, trying to ditch them and we finally succeeded at heeren! :D
We ran like siao at orchard. :D I saw nice bags! I waaaaant! BOO, when I've saved enough money, I'll go on a shopping spree during the holidays! Yay, so exciting. I want to work! Please please look for a job with me, someone.
Let's see...
I want a pair of new shoes. nike, puma or adidas.
A sweater/hoodie. nike, puma or adidas.
A new bag.
A new wallet.
A new phone.
New clothes.
New socks.
New undies.
Swatch watch.
Bracelet.
Volleyball.
Actually not a lot what, right? Just work hard enough. (:
Yes, then I can buy present for people to make them happy! :D
Don't you just love the smile on their faces when you buy something nice for them? That's the joy of giving. BUT, wait till I've at least bought a new bag and wallet first. x)
Okays, I'm going off now. Must mugmugmug!
I love you, fartsie.

10:49 AM

HELLO(:
I've ponned school today.
Diarrhea in the morning, so I thought I'm down with that stupid virus.
So just skipped school.
Watching Princess Hours now. x)
Okay, shall blog later.

4:37 PM

Okay, I have to admit to saying things about Cheryl and Denise.
But thou shalt stop ALL the gossiping in class.
Really really really stop.
Serious.
BUT, I guess I won't stop the snow and flower thing soon.
Not time yet.
Wait till I find a new obsession. (:

4:20 PM

Haha, Meiyi, Lion isn't you. (:

The vomit spell took over AMKSS today.
Almost half the class got hit by it, and seah and tan didn't come. :D
So we got like, about 4 free periods? Rahs, it's really very boring if you have no classes. I was so bored that I started reading chinese story book! ><
Plus, we had food rationing sort of stuff. It's damn disgusting lah. Biscuits. Yuckkkk.
Sat throughout the class. oneTHREE's so broken up. :( I see people sitting in 3 groups and a few scattered around. It's quite depressing eh.
I tried to make funny faces at denise, but I guess I failed. She responded with a very foul face and a expression that says, 'are you mad?'
Aye, suckiness please.
Mac's with Jane and Deb. Saw my qing ai de there. Haha. :D
Yeap, then home after that.
Here I am, blogging when I have tuition later and work is STILL undone. How many days already! I'm sooooo lazy. -.-
Please make me hardworking.

10:13 PM

-slapsself- how could I forget! Dance and drama lesson today were great! The boys' dance were all darn cute lah! Dance until super gay. x) My group did alright I guess. Yes, and I like the blouse Meiyi lent to me! Can I not return? -batseyelashes- HAHA. Okay, whatever. I saw what loopin wrote on her lj. So I'm going to do the same, except that I'm going to add those that I still love, because I remember the good times we had.

I HATE:-
Flower
Snow
Lion
Dee
Stupid boys
Chicken

I STILL LOVE:-
Flower
big friend
darlinggg

I never could have settled certain problems without you all. istillloveyou. (:

P.S: I'm writing this in my bear pyjamas top and my primary school shorts. You know why? Because the genius squirted the soymilk that mummy brought home for me all over my pants and on daddy.
P.P.S: I know I rock. :D

8:16 PM

OMFG! My mum came home and told me that ye laoshi called her and told her that I have to go get the hua wen wen hua jiang in front of the whole school. You sheng zhe is first ah?! I want to pon school already. Super malu lah. Janeeeee. I got first, not consolation prize okay! Rahs.

7:46 PM

TODAY ROCKED! :D riiiiight, qing ai de-s?
Lessons were alright. Slept during science because Ms Tan took over and then her lessons were so so so boring, so I just fell asleep. Then after that was Chinese. Harrassed Jane again. :D Haha, I scored 31/40 for my chinese test you know! Not too bad lah, huh?
Then Chen laoshi came to my table and looked at my zuo ye and then hit me because I didn't do anything except for the first exercise. I got don't know what you sheng jiang for the history thing you know! Pro! Jane was laughing at me when she heard. Stupid girl, she's just jealous that I'm so knowledgeable. HAHA.
After school today was great lah. Jane, jiayu, twinny, max, bao hui and I had a threesome, a foursome, a handsome and a sixsome on the mats at the back of the hall! Handsome is also known as fivesome. Heh. Very funny okay. We also had a discussion on boobs and butts and my feet and hands. :D
We were fooling around, then I suddenly said, "qing ai de, yao shang chuang ma?" to jane, then later to twinny, then to jiayu. HAHA, then I held jiayu's hand and said, "qing ai de, wo zai qian ni de shou!" Super spastic lah. All terrorised by me.
At around 5.40, left for macs with simin and jane. Had mcspicy and green tea(usual), then left for home.
Yeap, that's all. (: Have to go off now. Goodbye! :D:D:D:D

6:25 PM

I know this is none of my business, but you're talking about my dearest down here. RAHS.
I HATE LIONS TOO. I bet you're just jealous that they are together and you have no one. What's the use of flaming them when all you get is loads and loads of criticisms from people?
Gah. SUCKER.

On a lighter note, studying with Jan & co. tomorrow. That is if I could stay put in a place for an hour at least.
If you're wondering why I'm blogging now, it's because my tuition teacher text-ed me to say that she couldn't make it. So yeap, that's why I'm here.
Okay, going to cheer my twinny up now.
:D

4:05 PM

THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTIETH POST.
The day was quite alright. :D
Bao Hui likes to hit me a lot now. I don't know whyyyyy. Why hit your absolutely lovable mama? I am so upset. BOOO. HAHA.
Jiayu doesn't have mood swing today, so I like him! HEH. And then we are both crazy about Goong, so that's a plus. Dear boy, your grandmama loves you muchie! x)
I am so darn successful in not knowing and not caring. I saw him today. I just walked on without even thinking about flowers or snow. NEHNEH. Go jump into the pile of comfy snow and fuck make snow angels for all I care. Actually I do. I can write anything I want, because you can't highlight to see what I've written! It doesn't matter if you knew anyway. (:
Geog test today. I didn't study because I didn't know about it until today! Borrowed Liko's notes so that I could 'assist' me, but turned out that I don't even have the chance to even peep. But but, I could answer most of the questions lah. I hope I do well, because I felt quite confident.
After that was maths test. Confirm fail. What stupid journal shit! Fuckkkkk. I could only construct the bisectors, and the rest I don't really know how to do already. Must tell them how you constructed your diagram. You know a lot of things is common sensical and cannot be put into words what, how to answer! Sighhhh. Blah, never mind.
After school, went to library to return books and then home. Tuition later! Gah, tuition work still not done. Sigh, I shall go rush it now.
BYEBYE.

P.S: JANEEEEE! HUGHUGHUGHUG! :D
edited. :D

6:16 PM

Well, I've never thought that I would ever like someone like her, but she seems pretty nice and writes darn well too.
You know, I wouldn't mind if I turned out like her. Really. Wait till I turn 17 and opt for poly. I'll colour my hair and put on mascara and have gorgeous girlfriends to go out with. I LOVE GORGEOUS GIRLFRIENDS! Haha. I dig pretty girls. (:

12:27 PM

Don't know and don't care! :D

10:36 AM

I'm not bothered by everything any more. Therefore, not sad at all. Nope, not at all. I mean it.
LALALA. :D
Okay, I'm going to go revise Science and Maths later today. But peach haven't called me yet... Wonder if she remembers that we have a date today! Okay, shall call her later :D

6:00 PM

I see
I want
I wait
I cry
I get
I love
I dump
I hate
I can't fucking be bothered any more.

It's so fucking unhealthy to be holding on to something as hopeless as this.

He sees
He wants
He waits
He gets
He love
& as for the rest, it's still unknown.
Hope he gets dumped again.
I won't be caring much after this. Shouldn't even have let it bug me so long; making things more miserable than it already is. Shouldn't have, shouldn't have.
Let forgiveness wash away the pain. (:
I'm ready to forgive and forget.
Yes.
Whatever it may be.
I'm trying to be a better person.

Thou shalt stop gossiping.
Thou shalt stop be a good student.
Thou shalt love everyone.

With this, I will end my session with you.
May the Lord be with you. (:
HAHA, CORNY!

5:47 PM

BLAH BLAH. Deborah will win for sure.
Not like I care. Whateverrrrrrrrrrr.

12:14 PM

My tears were of the bloodiest red yesterday.
Talked to mummy yesterday about everything that's happening and how I screwed up. She made me do a reality check. She said, 'just remember the few good friends. You can't expect everyone to like you, because it's going to be very difficult. If you don't try so hard to talk about things to make it right, it might just turn out for the better because we all need time to heal. Try not to be too close to people, because you only appreciate beautiful things from a distance.'
How true, how true...

Fartsie, please don't blame yourself for everything. Peach and I were just very emotional yesterday and couldn't find the right words to say to you...
Things will never be able to be the same for you and me any more. You wouldn't open up as easy any more. I feel it deep within me. So glad that I've been able to make you happy though. For the past few weeks, you've been my greatest emotional support. You've been the most important.

7:08 PM

WTH. I'm a sucker lahhhhhh. Tear like nobody's business. FOR WHAT MAN, YOU STUPID SWOLLEN EYE.
So what if you have no one else?
So what if you feel betrayed?
So what if you feel like you've screwed every fucking test?
So what if you're feeling emo?
So what if you feel like you can't smile anymore?
So what if you feel that a certain someone doesn't really care for you as much as you think she does?
So what if you feel that she's actually closer to snow?
So what if you have ugly swollen eye and have to wear your ugly spectacles?
So what if someone took your heart and conveniently stomped on it?
So what if you feel insignificant?
So what if you feel like you have nothing else to live for?
So what if you feel stupid?
So what if you feel useless?
So what if someone you've brought into your heart is fighting so hard to escape?
So what if you feel like you've let down your group?
So what if you feel that you've let down your friend?
So what if you feel like you're never ever going to be happy again?
You don't have to wet your face with tears. You have water, baby. You dumb ass.

5:57 PM

The day is so screwed up. (:
I'm gonna fucking fail my maths test because I can't fucking plot my graph. I have no bloody idea why we have to learn how to draw graphs lah. Like so stupid. Why can't we like have lessons on how not to get hurt instead? So many people would benefit from it.
Never mind, then after school did the drama thing for literature. Aye, we did so badly lah. I think even Ying Hui's group with the scripts and all done better. GAH, never mind. I guess...
Went to orchard to with peach to eat and wait for Thinthin who never came. She left us for Jasmine and co. :( RAHS.
Bought ice cream with peach at whampoa then walked her home. HAHA, we were lame lah. That retarded one played hopskotch(?) there. Saw my now estranged cousin; I think she's going to Siying's house. Blah blah. Walked home after that. On my way, I was trying to figure out the way home. So I walked around some houses and then I was scared out of my wits by a dog in one of the houses. It suddenly appeared out of nowhere and growled at me. Then I ran all the way home. HAHA. Retardddd.
Okay, so I shall stop blogging already. Blog later. When my twinny's out to celebrate mooncake festival with forest in school. HAHA, I am celebrating it alone. So cool. YAY. (x I am not lonely, just alone. Yes yes. My house is so empty now. Everyone's out. Heh. Whatever.
-orangie! aka choco.

9:33 PM

My twinny is boyfriend material! x)
He's so super sweet, but has no girlfriend.
Come come, girls start making a bee line for him, because he's worth it.
I'm advertising my twinny! Hahaha.
But then again, he's going to only love one person...
*ahem.
Okay, never mind.
Haha.
Random post.
-orangie!

2:46 PM

RAHS. At home with super swollen eye. Very painful lah! T^T
Then the storyfest thing, I don't think we'll be able to hand in anything. :(
My photos cannot be developed, and Loo Pin developed hers at the wrong size!
Ayeeee. Suckiness.
Maths test tomorrow. Pray that I pass with flying colours. I want to do well! Very badly.
Okay, so I shall study study later. :D
-orangie!

6:09 PM

One day, I will love you for you. Let me enjoy the freedom on being choosy for now. (:
PS, I saw KELKEL today! WHOA, twice. He looked straight at my ugly spectacles.
Hahaha. :D
-orangie!

5:16 PM

Oh ya, in the morning, went to oneFOUR because I didn't feel like staying in class.
Twinny's lit group super mai ming! Their props are super good. Hua hen duo xin si qu zuo de. (:
But these days, twinny is super cold to me. :( Gah, I miss the warm twinny!

After school today, went to 202 for prata with Deb, Simin, Liko and Jane. Jane was super dumb lah. Retard! Dropped her prata never mind, still have to malu herself further by saying xue xiao with this gay cheena accent. Super funny lah! It became xue shao. We were all laughing so hard lah. Then she tried saying 'she sells sea shells on the sea shore', then it became 'she sells sea shore on the sea shell'. LOL. Deb and I kept imitating her after that.
Heh, and she likes to sing 'ni na me ai ta, wei shen me bu ba ta liu xia.' And now I'm singing it too. Bad influence. Stupid Jane!
Hahaha.
-orangie!

11:38 AM

I'm blogging from school now.
Aye, super moody.
AMKSS sucks.
It's like you can never depend on anyone. :(:(:(
You can't trust anyone.
I miss Valval..
Baby I miss you so...
Homework is never ending and yaddah yaddah.
Whatever lah. Sigh.
I HATE FLOWERS AND SNOW.
-orangie!

10:31 PM

Being in a relationship sucks.
The aftermath is worse.
A word of advice: don't get into a relationship.
It drains the smile out of you.
I'm alright.
I'm going to chant I'm happy a hundred times each day. (:
-orangie!

7:04 PM

RAHS. I can't upload the videos of junwei here! :(
But you can go take a look through the linkies!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c2YC8SoaDzk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNRZo7EichQ
:D

Enjoy!
I won't be blogging much here. I've moved.
Not going to tell you url or where I've moved to. Want to keep in private so I can bitch freely.
But but, I know you're going to run away with her. Soon, soon...
Lalala, cheer up!
Removing password soon. Heck already. Since I'm no longer writing deep deep thoughts here. (:
Don't bug me for the new url ; I'll tell you if I feel like it. Nanana.
-orangie!

6:57 PM

I'm SO stressed up by everything. I read your mail, Cheryl.
I really don't know. I heard things here and there, and now I really don't know. I don't know if it's true or not. I don't know... :( It feels damn bad to be the subject of gossip. So painful that I could cry my eyes out, but I just can't cry.
I really loved you, I really did. The times I turned around to look at you is because I was super tired those days and then you were talking so loudly with Keith and Jeremy and I got irritated, that's why I turned back to look, not glare. I don't even know how to glare at people.
I mean every word I say. I am more sincere than any other people that you know. I don't like to lie to my friends, so I rarely do. This is not one of the times though. I'm seriously tired of all these civil war? LOL, history!
Aye, so I don't know lahhhh. :(
-orangie!

6:38 PM

1. Single, taken or crushing?
single
2. Are you happy with your life now?
eh, not really.
3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
i've never been able to meet the right person to start with.
4. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
hell yes.
5. Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
yes if i ever cheat love. but if i don't, then no.
6. Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
NONONO. wait long also don't have.
Have you talked about marriage with another before?
eh, my mummy.
8. Do you want children?
no! they are nothing but trouble.
9.How many?
-.-
10. Would you consider adoption ?
no! everyone has a right to live. even an unborn child.
11. If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?
hold me close and whisper in my ear. blah, like that will ever happen!
12. you enjoy getting in relationship?
yes(:
13. Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
ah damn. even if i lie, you won't know what. i'll only tell you kissing.
14.Do you believe in love at first sight?
yesyes. i saw this nice nice bag just now. its love at first sight :D
15. Are you romantic ?
i think so..
16. Do you believe you can change someone?
yeap
17. If you could married to somewhere, where would it be?
the sky.
18. Have you ever broken a heart?
uhh, yeah..
19. If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you're deeply in love with, what would you do?
fight for my love.
20. Are you missing somebody now?
the old me. when i was in p6. when i was at my weakest, i'm at my best. i was the nicest person you could find.

Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.Write down their names in the list below.Tag them in their blog to let them know.
Valval(:
LOOPIN(:
renee(:
shermaine(:
jane(:

11:25 AM

TODAY IS A NEW DAY!
Cheer up, Bellebelle. (:
-BELLELOVED. <3

10:00 PM

I love CYNTHIA TEO!
She's super crappy today.
So she cheered me up a whole lot.
Plus she said that she loves me.
HAHA. :D
And Simin dedicated a post to me. (:
Thank you!
-BELLELOVED. <3

8:30 PM

How to be happy when I can't even cry now. Chloe talked to me about it, Loopin too. Two of my dearest. How to be happy, tell me when everything comes crumbling down? I feel sick to the core. I can't eat proper. My dinner's still untouched.
How to love everybody when so many of them dislike you? I dislike those two sitting behind me a lot. I can't vent my anger! :(:(:(
I want a transfer! I want to transfer to private school. I like my time alone. I don't like the harmonious class now. :( I don't feel for the class now. Sigh, whatever.
-BELLELOVED. <3

4:41 PM

I'm fucking stressed up. I can't fucking believe everything that's happening to me. To tell the truth, I think I'm really too tired to hold on. With the FYE coming, and relationship problems, plus the friendship problem, these could turn any sane person mad. Thank god my family's alright.
I've been living in this world for over 13 years, and I've been trying to be thankful for my life. But every time I feel that everything feels so right, my world has to come crumbling down again. Thank you, people up there. I'm thinking that if buddha haven't been doing a good job of taking care of me, maybe God can. Anyone wants to bring me to church?
Then again, thank you for giving me my dearest Val who sat by me in class and tried to cheer me up. You're really great. Without you, I think I would have broken down there and then feeling so alone. I love you.
Chinese lesson was retarded. Sitting with Jane makes me retarded lah. Norman's her sister, and I'm Norman's twinny, so that makes us sisters, and Jane got such a retarded reaction after I said that. DUMB RIGHT? And the liang zhi lao hu song. Ah, you stupid girl.
After school, went to the canteen with Liko, Simin and Deb. Then after a while, went to meet peach and went to j8. Pastamania-d, then went to find my bag. $82.75, plus it's not the right size. Then went to the supermarket to look for food because peach has bbq on sunday while I'm going to see sights in sentosa.
Homed after that. Yeap. cynTHIA can't tan, because the weather forbids. Haha.
Okay, having tuition soon. And the work's undone. Heh.
-BELLELOVED. <3

6:09 PM

Where is he, where is he, where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he, who is he, who's gonna bring me so high?

AYE, PE sucked. FAD sucks. Kept gossipping and diao-ing us. Whateverrrrr. Suckers. I can't be fucking bothered lah. Sigh, I hate the sitting arrangement now! Rahrah, cannot study! How? I want to change seats! My gays are all interested in girls now. I think cannot call them gays already. Then junwei became qianbian's k0rr k0rr. Yuckyucks. So darn sickening please. How screwed can my day get?
After school, accompanied Deb and Simin to 202 for prata, then went to meet mummy at tp. Had jap for lunch, then went to tan tock seng hospital because she wanted to have her IPL session. She super wtf lah. Eat her words again. Refuse to buy me my K800i. :(:(:( No motivation to study. BOOHOOHOOHOOHOOOOOO.
So I black face-d all the way home. Till now still giving the same dull expression.
AIYAH, I don't know lah. So so so so so so down now. This year can have long distance relationship with cynTHIA because we could see each other from our classes and wave at each other. Next year cannot already! So far away. And got different recess time. And no poking. :( Worst of all is that there's no peach! choco without peach = bitter choco!
No more outings together, no more fun together. Just thinking about me makes me so freaking upset.
I HATE FAD! RAWR. BLAH, suckers.
-BELLELOVED. <3

9:43 PM

Suddenly my heart feels heavy.
No I won't sink into depression again.
It's all too deep for me to unroot.

On a lighter note, I might be going to sentosa with Loo Tong and Denise! :D
I want to go buy bikini. LOL.

& good luck for history tomorrow, cynTHIA. x]
-BELLELOVED. <3

8:59 PM

I'm baaaack! :D
I was watching SI, then I noticed that Jonathan's fans calls him Jon. Why Jon and not Nathan?
Nathan sounds so hot and sexy okay! Nathaniel especially. Nat too. (:
Don't you just love hot names? :D
Okay, this is super random.
Off I go then. Zoom zoom.
-BELLELOVED. <3

6:48 PM

HELLO! (:
Aye, lessons were damn boring. Rushed through my time log. Managed to finish man! x) I know I rock, enough said.
After school today, went to shaw plaza to have lunch at kfc with peach. Then went to her house downstairs to play volleyball. Hahaha, we played like crappy shit lah. We were happily playing when a policeman came over to ask us how long we've been playing! After that, another policeman helped us pick up our ball! Wahhhhh. Then when I was on my way home, I saw another police car! :D I am crazy over policemen! HURHUR. Retarded. Okay, going off now.
BYEBYE.
P.S I GOT STUPID DI DI!
-BELLELOVED. <3

8:54 PM

HELLO! :D
AYE, I LOVE TODAY PLEASE!
Dance and drama rocked. (((:
And after school today, went to eat prata with Simin, Deb, Beverly and Chloe. HAHA, I am SHU NU! TWO CHEESE PRATAS! Was super duper full after that lah. Then walked Deb back to school for her D&T and Beverly and Chloe left. I was supposed to stay back to do also! But Val and Jeremy helped me. (x Aww, so nice of them. Hahaha.
Went to j8 to meet THINTHIN, Melissa, Isabel and Wang Kee. Turned out that they were celebrating Isabel's birthday, then Simin and I liang shou kong kong appeared there and ate her cake. RAWR, so pai seh... =/
Jasmine and peach came to meet us to go k-box at tp. Hahaha, it was fun lah. We got super high, then sang at the top of our voices. Embarrassed myself a lot of times! ><
Melissa go there to eat and drink only. She never stopped eh! And she sounded like a spoilt brat when she talked on the phone to ask for more nuts.
We left for home around 7.

Outing today got a lot of whispers here and there lah. So quite eh, not harmonised?
Never mind! We will be able to have a proper trip out next time without people talking into each other's ears. (:
-BELLELOVED. <3

8:48 PM

Oh ya, won't you date me, Thinthin? :D
I bought you chocolates okay! Hahaha!
-BELLELOVED. <3

8:35 PM

First day of school today! WOOT, I didn't die. (:
Lessons were boring as per usual. But Geog lesson sucked big! Stupid Lee, tried to act like Ms chow. Talk like her, act like her, but she doesn't TEACH like her lah! NONO, you can never replace Ms Chow! The way she teaches ah, I think we will all fail geog. She finished one chapter within a period okay! If we don't study, we will fail the damned test for sure. RAHS. What's more, she resembles Low Wei Yee?! YUCK YUCK.
Never mind, after school, went to eat. I saw Jiayu and twinny! So I skipped over and stuck my head out and wanted to shout hello. But then I saw Arthur. HAHA, shock of my life. My whole face changed into embarrassment lah. He grew his hair back already. =/ Aye, hot? WHATEVER. Ahem, okay. Then after drinking green tea and 1/8 of Calvin's soup, we went back to school for oral. Wasn't too bad lah. I should get about 12? I'd better!
After which, went to watch movie with Kuang Yong. Watched The Host. HAHA, it's a miracle he walked out with his hand intact considering the fact that I pinched it, hit it and punched it. It's because the mutated fish scared me okay! It's quite a nice show. Worth spending your money on. :D Then after that, went home.
Ah, Han Wee's SUPER NICE TO ME! ((x He's giving me whatever he's going to give me tomorrow. (: Whatever it may be, I'll still be grateful. :D

Okay okay, I've got to do my work now. Or else I'll really be dead tomorrow.
BYEBYE. (:
-BELLELOVED. <3

6:49 PM

RAHS, I siasuay-ed myself at my cousin's house.
My favourite aunty bought my cousin a set of hair straightener and curler stuff. The one peach has. And then I suddenly remembered that she didn't buy any damn thing for me! Nothing at all. Then I got very unbalanced and cried during dinner. x/ I started shouting biased.
Then I went into a room and continued crying. I don't know lah! I don't think it's just because of that matter. All the other problems add on and on then I finally break down again.
SIGH, oh well. I feel crappy. I haven't done any homework. HOORAY. (: Whatever, I'm gone.
-BELLELOVED. <3

11:12 AM

I've been wondering since yesterday why no one invites me to their house to play! WHY OH WHY? Am I not fun any more? Am I not nice any more? BOOHOOOOOOOOO.
Sigh, never mind. I'll proceed to talking about more intellectual things. (:
I was reading this article in the Life section of the Straits Time. (refer to page 8)
It's about these motivational speakers who earns up to $15 000 a day! o.O
SO, I hereby declare that I am going to become a motivational speaker too. You just have to talk loads of inspiring stuff and walah, ching ching you get money in your pocket. A whole wad of them, actually (or a very heavy piece of cheque). I am very inspiring also. I talk to people, trying to make them see the goodness of life and the light at the end of the tunnel. Am I not good enough? By talking to big friend everyday for 5 years, I believe I will become a very famous motivational speaker in the near future. [[x I'll buy you a meal or two when that time comes!
Yeap, isn't it the best job ever next to being the wife of a multi-millionaire? :D
HAHAHA, my day will come, and you will all be screaming my name and bowing to me. (:
One day...
-BELLELOVED. <3

11:50 AM

:D
For better or worse, till death do us part, I'll love you with every beat of my heart ; I swear.
I'm listening to I Swear! Aye, the lyrics so romantic... xD
AND my dearest ASS is finally back! How much I've missed you!
LALALA, 10 million per month is too much lah. Even bill gates doesn't make that much. Must be more realistic! Yeap! :D
I want to go out! I miss my gays so much now, all of a sudden. But I doubt they will go out with me even if I ask them to. It's worth a try though...
-BELLELOVED. <3

6:35 PM

I love my pretty pretty time log cover page(:
But it turned out quite ugly after being printed. :(
SIGH. Still got a lot more to go!
-BELLELOVED. <3

5:30 PM

I'm back from visiting the animals at the animal RESORT. HAHAH.
Okay, it's at this place near Seletar West. You can get there by 103 and 86 if I'm not wrong. That place quite ulu, got nothing much there so didn't take photos. Two ponies and goats, loads of dogs and emus and rabbits, a few guinea pigs, a goose, a pelican and a tortise. Oh, and parrots and chickens. The parrot at the gate is cute! It says 'hello' and 'bye bye'!
And then a rabbit just gave birth not long ago, so there were these REALLY REALLY TINY AND CUTE baby rabbits! :DDDD I WANT TO BRING THEM HOME! But my house has a no pet policy. :(
Aye, okay then. Chatting with peach now. We are talking about photoshop. -.-
Asking her about brushes and fonts. Hahaha.
BYEBYE.
-BELLELOVED. <3

2:01 PM

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

Chorus:
I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

Chorus
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

Chorus(3x)
-BELLELOVED. <3

9:36 AM

AHHH, I'm having this crappy headache, I think I can just die.
Didn't go for training, because I don't want to, and because I'm having flu or cold, or whatever.
fuckfuckfuck. My head's killing me. I just can't stop typing. I type like I'm shooting bullets now because I want to keep my mind off my stupid head. I'm not even making sense now! RAHS.
Dad might be bringing andra and I to the pet farm later. :D
I might upload the photos if I'm not feeling lazy or crappy.
Okay, I'm off now. BYEBYE
-BELLELOVED. <3

8:57 PM

HELLO! I've healed my battered soul! BUT, my soul will soon be battered again. -.-
Tons of homework undone! T^T That's besides the point...

Went out with peach today! :D To Marina Square. The main reason was to look for Candy Empire, which we failed to do so even though we went all the way to Changi Airport. HAHA. So we had lunch at Yoshinoya, then walked around. Peach kept stopping me from going in to shops lah! Pull my pretty pink blouse. :( She's jealous that I got such nice blouse, that's why she tried to spoil it. But I did see some nice jackets in the adidas and puma boutique. OKAY, MUST SAVE MONEY TO BUY. ^^
We walked around and couldn't find candy empire! I did manage to spot a few shuai ge-s though... Then peach msged her friend to ask her where it is, then her friend said that there's one at Millenia Walk and one at Changi, and that's how we ended up there.
Again, we couldn't find any candy empire. SPOTTED SHUAI GE-S AGAIN! :DDDD
AHHAHA, I bought this pink hair band which I'm in love with, and then went to Sakae for snack. Then walked around, then decided that it was time that we should go home. It was around 5.30 then. We went into the MRT and started playing with a ring. Aye, peach is kiddy, can't help it.
We took the mrt to kallang, then on the way, peach made me guess which hand the ring was in. I kept getting it right lah! Only got it wrong once because I didn't want to make her feel stupid.
Then when it was her turn to guess which hand the ring was in, she got most of it wrong. Sigh, she's not very smart lah. :(
Then took 21 after we dropped from kallang. Then took a photo of the bus's top. Super lame. You may try to refer to peach's blog to look for it. Okay, I shall go now. BYEBYE.
-BELLELOVED. <3

9:37 AM

I just read Jan's posts. My heart aches for you, my dear. Please don't make Derrick's heart ache too. What is it with all that slashing? You're just mutilating yourself. You feel numb that very second, but have you ever thought that the scars are there to stay? It will be a mark of foolishness.
Please cheer up, Jan.
And please don't slash yourself again.
I love you.
-BELLELOVED. <3

12:25 PM

I don't feel like going now. HAHA, I will do the quiz/game/whatever you call it again.

Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head.*three of which must be the opposite sex*After that tag at least 5 people to do this.

1. jane
2. shermaine
3. deborah
4. keith
5. norman
6. arthur
7. chloe ng
8. crystal
9. yanting
10. serene
11. chloe tan

1. How did you meet 10 [serene]?
i've known her since forever! my darling cousin. [:

2. What would you do if you never met 2 [shermaine]?
there probably wouldn't be people A, B, C & D.

3.What would you do if 9 [yanting] and 11 [chloe tan] dated?
get very confused. but they most likely wouldn't date each other. :D

4. Do you like 7 [chloe ng]?
OF COURSE!

5. Would 5 [norman] and 6 [arthur] make a good couple?
NO WAY. both are too shy. and 6 has attitude problem.

6. Describe 3 [deborah].
my emo super kuku. always there for me. (:

7. Do you think 8 [crystal] is attractive?
yeap. cute.

8. Tell me something about9 [yanting].
my laopo.

9. Do you know any of 4's [keith] family?
his uncle and aunty. met them before.

10. Whats 5's [norman] favourite things?
someone whose name startss with R and his TWINNY! :DDD

11. What would you do if 10 [serene] confesses she likes you.
eh, neutral.

12. What language does 6 [arthur] speak?
english, chinese and cantonese.

13. Who is 9 [yanting] going out with?
no one. she's trying to forget some jerk.

14. How old is 8 [crystal] now?
thirteen!

15. When was the last time you talked to 1 [jane]?
eight minutes ago.

16.What is 2's [shermaine] favourite band/singer?
not sure.

17. Would you ever date 7 [chloe ng]?
if i'm a guy who likes humour, than yeap, i will.

18. Would you ever date 11 [chloe tan]?
NO.
19.Have you ever seen 8 [crystal] naked?
nope, but saw her in her panties. :D

People whom you want to pass this on:
deb, yanting, peach, shermaine, jane.

12:04 PM

I'm bored to death here. Having tuition at 4 later.
See, now that I have a password prompt, I can blog FREELY.
Unless my password has been spreaded far and wide. =/
OR people whom I gave my password to read what I've wrote about other people and told them.
Please give me due respect and keep whatever I've written to yourself.
YOUR COOPERATION IS MUCH APPRECIATED.

I've finished reading Soul Love by Lynda Waterhouse last night/today morning, counting the fact that I've finished at 12.27 am. It's darn nice okay. I feel more intelligent already. [: You can try looking for it at the library, or you may borrow it from me since the due date is 2 weeks plus from now. I'm a geeky bookworm - I finished reading three books in less than a week. :D

I want to go out tomorrow! To Marina Square. I want to go shopping! Shopping heals the battered soul, or so I say. x] Who wants to go with me? ANY company would suffice. Serious. Too bad Deb has a schedule to follow, or else I'll drag her out to heal her. Speaking of which, Deb is super emo again. Why, why? Cheer up, my dear kuku. And I found another person tagging using my name! :( What is it with your name that you're so ashame to put down? Why my name, and not someone else's? Please get a life.
That person is lucky that he/she didn't tag anything mean, or else I'll turn really mad. Hmmm, okay. I should go now. BYEBYE.
-BELLELOVED. <3

7:59 PM

Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head.*three of which must be the opposite sex*After that tag at least 5 people to do this.

1. renee
2. calvin
3. cynthia
4. chloe ng
5. norman
6. loo pin
7. janette
8. derrick
9. keith
10. simin
11. peach

1. How did you meet 10 [simin]?
secondary school. gan meimei!
2. What would you do if you never met 2 [calvin]?
i probably won't be as depressed as i am now. nah, just joking. eh, i probably won't have a comfy shoulder to lie on.
3.What would you do if 9 [keith] and 11 [peach] dated?
bang my head against the wall.
4. Do you like 7 [janette]?
DUH, why else will her name be here. my zhu. [:
5. Would 5 [norman] and 6 [loo pin] make a good couple?
HAHAH, what do you think? too bad norman has someone else in mind already.
6. Describe 3 [cynthia].
crappy gay lion who sticks her pinky out while eating. :D
7. Do you think 8 [derrick] is attractive?
UHHH, not too bad lah.
8. Tell me something about9 [keith].
my shuai[in the near future] di di!
9. Do you know any of 4's [cheryl ann] family?
eh, clarissa and her aunty?
10. Whats 5's [norman] favourite things?
number 1. :P
11. What would you do if 10 [simin] confesses she likes you.
eh, neutral.
12. What language does 6 [loo pin] speak?
english, chinese and probably a little jap
13. Who is 9 [keith] going out with?
no one. i want him for myself! HAHA.
14. How old is 8 [derrick] now?
thirteen!
15. When was the last time you talked to 1 [renee]?
less than an hour ago.
16.What is 2's [calvin] favourite band/singer?
not sure.
17. Would you ever date 7 [janette]?
no way! i'm straighter than your ruler.
18. Would you ever date 11 [peach]?
HAHAHAA. we are together since the start of the year. peach and chocolate. xD
19.Have you ever seen 8 [derrick] naked?
no! i doubt there's anything to see also.
People whom you want to pass this on:
chloe ng, simin, loo pin, calvin, renee.

7:50 PM

I want to put the password prompt now! Okay, so I shall. Those that are too late, that's just too bad for you. Maybe when there are too little people reading my blog and tagging, then I will remove it. [:
-BELLELOVED. <3

7:23 PM

Back from LOOPIN's house! :D
Quite lazy to write, so I'll just briefly sum up my day.
Went to Northpoint to meet up with the rest before going to her house. They were at the arcade, so I took the escalator up, and then there were these two guys, they rushed to stand on the same step as me. They then let out those high pitched 'hi and bye-s'. I was god damn terrified, I tell you. They followed me all the way to the arcade where they went off to do their own activities. Like phew.

Meiyi and Loo Pin taught us the sayonara dance. It was quite difficult to keep up at first, but then managed to get all the steps later. Oh, Loo Pin's mum cooked for us and she made pizza! Ah, it's so nice! Thank youuuuu! [:
Then played Crimson Room. Aiyah, we were all so scared lah, with the exception of Meiyi. Because got the eerie sound effects. -.-
OHOH, then there's this insect that refuses to bug off. So we suspect that it's sent by Jun Wei to check up on Yuqing. HAHAHA.
Yeah, then at late five o'clock, we went down to buy bubble tea, then went home. Yeap, that's all. Okay, not going to rant about anything else until maybe later. I'm so tired today.
-BELLELOVED. <3

7:50 PM

I feel like I can give up everything to be with you, but yet I cannot.
-BELLELOVED. <3

7:31 PM

-BELLELOVED. <3

6:25 PM

HELLO, I've just had my shower and I feel damn good now.
Although I'm sneezing like nobody's business. Archoo, archoo, archoo. Can someone please show some love? ARCHOOOOOOOO.
Went for training in the morning, and then my left foot had this cramp, when it's not really painful, but I just really can't MOVE. My fitness went down the drain. :(
Since I was having cramps, I could join Chloe and Vanessa in sitting down and bitching about people. :D HAHAHA, we had funnnnnn. [x DEB joined us, then later Chloe Tan.
Joined in the last few games because I was feeling bored. Then, warm down and freeee.
Went to wash up in the toilet, then to Mac for lunch.
Accompanied Jan to school to see her DERRICK. We talked a lot, and then I felt better and worse. Then played volley. I think Jun Wei's going to vomit blood soon, because I still can't set properly! Don't fret, shi fu! I will learn in time.

Went to Chloe's house after sending DERRICK to the bus stop and watching him board bus 74.
HAD A BLAST THERE LAH! I took photos! Shall post them up later. [: Thank you for everything, Chloe! Oh ya, I ticked and touched Liko's *****. HURHUR.
Went home around 5. Yeap.
I want to write a whole load of things hereeeeee. But, never mind.
-BELLELOVED. <3

9:53 PM

Rah, I feel crappy again. It's like I can never find THE ONE. How long have I been in search for him? I never stopped trying, and there were so many cases of mistaken identity. Oh when oh when, will you come along and stop making me feel like a fool again?
I swear, if I ever find him, I'll give him a good dressing down on how long he has made me wait, and then give him a nice warm hug, followed by a wet kiss then start crying and telling him everything I've been through. :(:(:(:(:(:(
Sigh, I'm not over my previous relationship yet. And it feels like forever. I know you will be reading this, but who cares, not you at least. You've since moved on...
Aye, don't get me started on this moving on shit. It's oh-too-painful.
On a lighter note, I got my tamagotchi, you know those $1 one where you have to turn this machine before it falls out? Yeah, and I'm so sick of it. Maybe I'll save the money to buy my Nike bag or new shoes. YEAP, sorry to put you off, Deb. BUT, we can buy our bags earlier! YAYS! *jumps for joy* :D
LALALA, training tomorrow, don't feel like going. Having this runny nose now, not sure if I can make it through tomorrow without staining my shirt with mucus. I'll try to go though, I know how much Simin and Chloe will miss me. :D HAHAHA.
Alright, I'm off now. Feels good to be pouring everything out. Come come, let's all let our emotions flow and not bottle things up. [:
-BELLELOVED. <3

8:38 AM

I dreamt about a prawn today.
I was sitting by the trash bin, sobbing very furiously, because apparently, my one and only love turned into a prawn and died. Then I wished and wished for it to be alive, but when it did, I was SO afraid of it, I ran the the bathroom and tried to close the door. It was already falling off part by part by then... It halfway through, and I was too afraid to stop, I clammed it. It shed a tear before it stopped moving again.
I think I broke that prawn's heart. And bones.
Will anyone please tell me what my dream meant? I felt so guilty, I could fall back to sleep you know. :(

Oh, right. I'll give a five days grace starting from now for people to ask me for the password.
Remember, tag and leave your email or blog url.

I'll give you moral support here, TWINNY! :D
Jia you, and don't aggravate your cough okay.
-BELLELOVED. <3

11:01 PM

WO SHI XING FU DE!
Han Wee and Norman hen teng wo! :D
And I like being called Belle Belle!
Like I'm a little kid.
And KUKU's so nice to me also. [:
I want to live in this moment forever.
When I'm happy.
And hyperrr!
-BELLELOVED. <3

9:19 PM

I COULDN'T GET MY TAMAGOTCHI! :(
I couldn't find it anywhere in united square, so I thought to myself, 'since I already intent to spend money today, I guess I'll just spend it on other things just to make myself feel loved and therefore, happy."
SO, I bought many many junk food! :D
M&M's chocolates [Pirates of the Carribean edition!], Meiji's Lucky Mini Almond chocolate, two packets of Hello Kitty marshmallows, a pack of... uhh, I don't know. Hello Kitty mixing syrup?
Yeah, then Han Wee called me saying that he has something to give me when school reopens. YAY, surprise again! I can't wait. [:
Serene and I went to Toa Payoh after that. Had laksa for lunch, then to the library to borrow books. Stayed there for around two hours before leaving for bubble tea and then to my aunt's house for dinner.
Yeap, now peach's trying to make chocolate horny. Too bad, chocolate doesn't get horny that easily. :D
-BELLELOVED. <3

12:02 PM

NEHNEH! To stop some people from reading my posts, I've decided to put a password prompt. :D
I'm giving you all a chance. Tag me and leave your email address so I can give you the password. No, you won't be able to ask from anyone else, because the people I give it to voluntarily are people that I trust. Moreover, I won't bite, so you may just ask me for it by yourself. This way, I will know who read my posts also. Gah, I'm not making sense already. My English very London. Cannot make it already. >< Never mind...
To xiiia0gonggzhhu: No, it's not me. I doubt your arthur g0r is hurt. It's seriously nortt your business, so I don't know why you care so much. Who knows, you might just be the one who tagged him because you like him and don't want me to get in the way.
Like, whatever.
Going out with Serene to buy my tamagotchi then to the library! YAYNESS. x]]
-BELLELOVED. <3

7:02 PM

BLOODY HELL.
Whoever tagged on Arthur's blog as BELLE, please kindly tag using your own name. Don't pose as me okay. Things are sour enough between the two of us, we don't need your kind help. Thank you very much.
And if that goes on, I'll track your IP address and give you hell. My point is, respect others and yourself.
-BELLELOVED. <3

6:44 PM

NEHNEH, I think my blogskin is super boring now. I want to make a new one! But then have to go hunting for code again, and god knows if it will turn out alright. :[
And I noticed that there are lesser people tagging me now. I'm going to abandon this blog if you all don't humour me with your tags hor. Please tag.
-BELLELOVED. <3

5:44 PM

ASHWIN KNOWS ME SO WELL! :D
I was sitting on the sofa stoning, thinking that I don't have much friends, because I was feeling very bored and then there's no one to talk to. Then Ashwin called! We are talking on the phone now. Feels good talking to him lah. [: Talk about our xin shi.
He knows me damn well! x] But he talks like a girl today! EEYER, SO GIRL. xDxDxD
Aiyah, I'm going to concentrate talking to him. BYEBYE.
-BELLELOVED. <3

8:26 AM

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!
Especially to my dearest Mr Ho and Ms Boo. <3
Thank you for all that you've done for me. I appreciate your kind gestures, even though you might have gotten me into some sort of trouble once. :D I STILL LOVE YOU!

Okay, reason why I'm up so early it's because my stupid sister woke me up because she can't off the computer. I mean, first, why did she wake up so early in the morning to use the computer?! She's just a kid you know. Second, why does she have to wake me up to off it for her? It doesn't have anything to do with me what! Sigh, the pain of having a sister like mine.
I'm looking for princess hours on youtube now. No luck locating episode 1, 2 and 3. I'll continue searching then. [x
-BELLELOVED. <3

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