Thursday, June 22, 2006
10:22 AM
I keep having bad dreams these days. I don't know why either, but I refuse to call them nightmare. They seemed so real, like it's all going to materialise soon, in a blink of the eye. I'm afraid... I can't take it if it all came together.
One of the bad dreams was about my Nutty. Which isn't entirely impossible, because he's been so cold towards me since he went back to Thailand. Okay the dreams goes like this...
So I made a trip back to primary school to visit everyone yet again, then I walked into the lift, and I saw Nutty. I attempted to touch his head like I always do when I see him, but the force came out to hard, jerking his head. He turned around, looked at me, and started scolding me. He has never tried scolding me before, mind you. And all of a sudden, he went to kiss Pongsuk whom I didn't notice until then. I could feel tears flowing out of my eyes lah. I asked him why, why of all people, with Pongsuk in front of me. Then he said, 'this would hurt you the most.' :( RAHH! Heartbreaking. Okay, should stop now. Goodbye.