7:14 PM

King's heart would break if he knew.

5:27 PM

I know I've been gone for a long while. I'm back again! (:
Okay, so I'm now required to spend three hours at my uncle's house studying, then at night, I have to go over again for revision. I'm going to spend my holidays like that! Sundays are exceptions. I can go out with anyone to anywhere! Please ask me out, people. I don't want to stay at home!
You see, I have nothing to write about these days, and I don't feel like complaining already. It's so tiring, you know? It's boring! No more movies to catch. No more people to meet up. No more things to do! BOO! SUCKS BIG TIME! Okay, I complained again. I shall be gone now. Goodbye. ((: Don't miss me please!

10:27 AM

I'm home from PTC. And I'm feeling super unwell. BOO. But I'm not having fever! Why? :(
Okay, PTC wasn't so bad. Mrs Seah said that I'm a very intelligent girl and that if I work hard on my weaker subjects, I'll be able to make it. That's what all my teachers said lah! But I really can't get things into my head. Sorry to disappoint you people. I'll try harder, I promise.
Results:-
English: B3
Chinese: B3
Maths: C6
Science C6
Geog: B4
Hist: E8
Lit: B4

Okay, so I failed one subject, but it's still as bad okay. I don't have any A's. I'm gonna work hard! I am! Renee, let's work hard together. (:
And I totally hate my dad please. He doesn't care about me. He doesn't give me allowance, he doesn't put me in tuitions, he doesn't buy me things when I really need it most. It's always been my mum. But when something bad happens, he talks the most. Irresponsible father. I showed him attitude lah. I think my mum agrees. Cos I told her about it, she didn't say anything much. But both of them nag nag nag nag nag lah. My face was like -.-zzz.
Okay, I'm off now. (: Don't miss me please. I don't think I can blog as much already.

10:06 AM

Thirteen years, three months and eight days into life and I'm tired of living already. It's worrying indeed. But rest assured, my life wouldn't end so soon. There are certain things I have to do before dying.
TEN THINGS I HAVE TO DO BEFORE DYING:-
1. Have sex with that one person I love most. (I won't die a virgin.)
2. Have at least one million under my name.
3. Spend the last days of my life with my best friends making merry.
4. Let everyone know how much I love them.
5. Have that one person I love most tell me that he loves me.
6. Spend money as my heart desires.
7. Stuff my face with food.
8. Go run and play volleyball for as long as possible.
9. Conquer my fear of swimming.
10. Go to Korea and Japan.

Yes, yes. My list may seem funny. But seriously, that's what I really want most. (:
I'll be gone now. Don't miss me please!

8:21 PM

BOO! What is home? THIS PLACE EFFIN SUCKS. I stepped into 'home' and I get shouted at. WOOHOO! Great.
Many things happened, but yet it seems like everything isn't exceptionally important. Everyday seems to be the same. With the same people, almost same place, same activities, so many things alike. Hey, I'm not complaining alright? I'm quite glad at the same time.
Volleyball and basketball almost everyday. Macdonald's and bubble tea. And my heart beats a different rhythm whenever king's around.
I'm getting so bored nowadays. Oh, I'm going off now. I'm losing touch with the world. Goodbye! Don't miss me please.

10:18 AM

I'm grounded for life due to lousy exam results. I'm blamed for everything. Okay, it's like so common to fail in secondary school. My parents just can't stand the fact that their baby daughter is failing 3 out of 7 subjects and is making a big fuss. Yes, adults are ultimately the know-it-alls. Anyone younger than them will not be entertained.
Parents ask you to stop quarreling with your sister, but they themselves shout at each other on a daily basis. It involves a very daft matter. "AIYOH, YOUR MEMORY SO BAD AH! I JUST TELL YOU SHE FAILED 3 SUBJECTS AND YOU SAY SHE FAILED 4." MUM TO DAD. I clearly remember her telling him it's 4. Oh, did I mention that she's a very demanding woman? She's never wrong, always right. And it's a wonder that I can still pass my English with parents who speak/shout in that kind of English.
She made arrangements for tuition a minute after I told her my results. Stupid kiasu typical Singaporean. You said I'm a smart girl. But you don't let things go my way. You want it your way. Fine, if I'm too stressed or anything, it's your fault. Don't push everything to me.
I'm so going to run away. I think I'm going to run off to Crystal's chalet for 3 days, then bid my time looking for somewhere to stay. I'm sick and tired of you asking me what to do. I have my way of handling things. I said I would try harder. You can't be bothered. I don't think I need to give you respect any longer. You said that I could fail if I wanted, but you're just trying to help me. Oh, is it? I'm happy with my results the way they are. I will work harder for myself. Stop pushing me already.
She forbids me to go out, to use MSS(that's what she thinks is MSN, laugh at her please), to use the computer for more than an hour daily. Oh yes, great. You think you're the best mother around. Please, go self reflect. I don't think you'll ever know anything about me anymore. My best friend will never be back again. No more. You sucker. Shoo. Die, pig, die. I don't need you.

6:24 PM

BOO! I SUCK.
I DID AWFULLY AND ARTHURLY BAD FOR THIS EXAM.
YUCKS. I'M DISGUSTED BY MYSELF.
OKAY, I'M SO GOING TO DIE NOW.
GOODBYE. DON'T MISS ME WHEN I'M GONE.
JUST CARRY ON. REJOICE EVERYTIME YOU HEAR THE SOUND OF MY VOICE.
EEEKSSS! I CAN'T REMEMBER HOW IT GOES. WAS THAT RIGHT?
WHATEVER. I'M GONE. <3

9:21 AM

I don't know what to blog about, I just felt like typing.
God knows what I'm supposed to write.
I felt that I had a lot of things to write.
But now I can't remember anything.
I remembered having a New Year's resolution. I have no idea how many of it I have failed. But I know I let myself down.

Everyone's trying to take up the blame, but what's the use? It's all gone now.
I remember... Let forgiveness wash away the pain. (:
I guess I'm willing to take another chance and try trusting you again.
Oh well, talk to me if you've read this.
And now I'm gone.

10:12 PM

I met you today. You no longer have the heart-beating-fast effect on me already. But I hid behind my hands and my bottle. I guess you missed me too. You didn't stop trying to search for my eyes, I know. But I saw how you dressed, how you act. I'm telling you it breaks my heart. Although you're not mine to command any longer, I hope you will change for the better. Change back to the boy I used to love. Don't let your mum down too. How would she feel if she knew how vast your change is. I can hardly imagine. I'll be waiting for you to change.

7:36 PM

PEOPLE IN ACTION. (: BENSON AND JOANNE'S SO SO SO GOOD AT BASKETBALL PLEASE! IT'S EFFIN SCARY. TRASHED BY THEM. UTTERLY ASHAMED. HAHAH!





Meanwhile when people were playing basketball... THESE PEOPLE HAD AN ILLEGAL GATHERING/GAMBLING DEN. LOL. KIDDING.

HAHAHAH! Derrick act sexy. ((((x

7:21 PM

AH! Damn. There's so much more photos to post. But I can't upload it to blogger. I wonder why... Shall try later. Anyways, went to school for listening comprehension. Wasted half an hour because there was something wrong with the cd, then went to Mac's with Jane and Liko, ordered food, and waited for Renee. (: We went to AMKCC to play volleyball with Jun Wei, Jiayu, Bao Hui and Calvin. Then Ashwin and Benson came, then got basketball, so we started to play basketball. Then Amos and Joanne came. Ashwin rocks man! Kept scaring me. -.- I'm stone. Wonder who's pebble. HAHAH.
Then after that, the SPLASTICS started getting very narcissistic, and kept taking photos at the same spot. LOL. TOOK A LOT! Renee has the most. Hahaha. I only have a few. =/ Then Derrick came. Played volleyball again, then left for bishan. Walked around with Liko to look for present for Cynthia and Jasmine. Finally settled for sunglasses. Then went to Toa Payoh with Renee. She went to MCS's swimming carnival. I left for primary school. (: YAYS. Played again! If I'm still going to get fat, there's no more justice. HAHAH. Oh well, I'll try to post more photos and let them do the talking. (:

7:10 PM

LIKO AND JANE WENT CRAZY WITH MY PHONE'S CAMERA!









Liko took these. Photos of mine and Jane's tea and and coffee respectively.

My primary school juniors. Okay, maybe seniors too. Cos some are overage students.

7:27 PM

I feel so lost now. Baby, if you're any closer to finding me, please hurry. I don't think I can hold on any longer. I'm losing my grip. What's this life about? Has it been worth living? Thinking back, how many lives had I touched and made a significant difference? Fortune teller said I would find true love this year, and might die two years later. Gosh. What crap. I'm already losing track of life.
One step forward, two steps back.
One slip sideways, you're off the track.
Evidently, I went off track. Trusted the wrong people, fell for the wrong person, went to the wrong school, did the wrong things, and the list goes on. The only right thing? Making friends with Jane, Liko, Renee and Chloe. You girls were great, really. Please don't leave me alone, alright? I hope it isn't too much to ask for.
Love,
Me.

11:08 AM

And beware, girls over at Parco Bugis. This guy was caught peeping at girl's underwear and most probably tits too at the escalator area. Take care of yourselves, girls.

11:02 AM

All the photos I haven't post. These were memories captured by yours truly.

9:49 AM

I couldn't use the laptop yesterday, so I'm making up for it today. (:
Went to Shaw Plaza to watch Poseidon with Liko, Jane, Renee and Wang Kee. The show was nice! I like the boy! Connor or something. He's cute. I think he's pretty smart too. So after the movie, we took photos in the cinema. Renee only sent one to me.
THIS WAS LIKO'S IDEA! THE TILT! (:
Then we took photos in the toilet. HAHAH! WE SAW THIS!

Interesting, aye?
Then we went go bugis. On the way, Renee took a photo of this:

HOTEL 81.
We walked around for Cynthia's and Jasmine's present, then we saw this bung. She really looked man! If she didn't speak, I would still be thinking that she's man. We were sneaking around checking her out. We were quite obvious I think. After that, we went to j8 for lunch. Ice kachang for dessert. Went to the court later. Played basketball and volleyball. I saw otter's brother! Look so alike. But evidently, his brother is more out-going. Then after a while, I got very tired, so I laid down at the sit and when I sat up, I suddenly couldn't breathe. Then my whole body felt numb. Otter sucks please. Ask him to get water for me, he just sat there. A girl whom I don't know ran to mac's to get water for me. She's so kind. Some people are so ugly. What's with all the good looks when they are so ugly inside? I can't figure. Went home, then mum scolded me for coming home so late. Then I told her about me couldn't breathe thing, she didn't care. I wanted to cry. So much for the heartwarming home. The whole world could scold me, but I could hold back the tears. But often, it's my family that makes me cry. Just say a few things, and I'll be reduced to tears.
What are friends? I trusted you so, I loved you so. You gave me up for someone else. You'd rather spend time telling her things and hurt me than cherish our friendship. I'm disappointed. That's what friends are for. Thank you for everything. You've been one of my best friends.

6:54 PM

First time in god knows how long, I didn't join the clique for basketball and volleyball. HAH. I went to watch When A Stranger Calls with Peach. We screamed in the cinema and it was darn it malu man. Oh ya, I thought I wouldn't meet otter if I didn't go play, but turned out that we still did at the bus stop, then 13 came, I thought he boarded, so I took 88 then he boarded 88. I was so fustrated I tell you. EEEK!
So anyway, we went to Shaw to watch movie, then after that, Peach and I were at a lost about where to go. So we went to the not-so-cyber-cafe to use the computer. Some bhps juniors came in, then pointed and stared at me. It's proven that I'm still remembered after leaving school for almost half a year. HAHAHA. I'm proud and happy. ((:
So we decided to go to Whampoa to have ice cream, then played volleyball for a while, then I went back to bhps. YAYS! Hong Hui called me, so I went. Mrs Nair missed me! HAHAHA! Okay, then I met Mr Ho, and talked to him just like old times. He's still as understanding as ever. Oh, primary school... all the memories came flowing back. Good or bad, they are there so stay. Then went home about 2 hours later. ^^
Calvin told me they had fun today. So that means they have fun only when I'm not around? Sigh. I'm not missed. But Renee did call me before my movie. I guess she's the only one who missed me. :( Give up something for another, I guess. I'm still quite happy in the end. Tomorrow's maths paper. I hope it won't be too bad. After tomorrow, I'm rid of the stupid exams! Two days holidays! :D LALALA~ I'm a happy kid. Alright, I'm off now. Goodbye. Don't miss me please!

4:58 PM

I came home early today. Okay, I'm so over king. So many people likes you, and you're so close to some other people, I don't think I want to come and disrupt. I'm alright. Just don't want to see your smile again. I'm afraid of the effect it has on me.
Went to the other court to avoid meeting king - no sorry, it's otter. Played basketball a while, then rest then watched Ashwin and Han Sen team up with a guangyang sec guy and two maris stella ones to play against those whitley guys. Then Jane told me, "eh, king - otter - is coming. Han Sen told him where we are." zzzzzzzzz. STUPID MAN! I DON'T WANT TO SEE OTTER LAH! I'M ALLERGIC! Liko, Renee, Simin and I were playing with the basketball when Liko threw the ball so hard that I had to run to catch it. I fell while running for it. It was hilarious okay. I couldn't help laughing at myself. I'm effin' laughable. HAN SEN SAW WHAT HAPPENED LAH! I hope others didn't, cos I'm already super malu. LOL.
Then Jiayu, Jane and otter went to the jinxed court, and the rest of us stayed there to wait for Ashwin and Han Sen. After that, I took a taxi home while they go to the court cos I didn't want to see the otter. The taxi driver is so nonsensical please! I didn't feel like talking, but he went blah blah blah, and me being me, I had to entertain him. Some things I could remember was him asking me why I played basketball, then I told him because my friends wanted to play, then he said that playing basketball is good and I can play if I liked. STUPID PLEASE! Like I'm some retarded kid. BLEH! Alright, tomorrow's history. I didn't study. HAHAHA! Going off now. Goodbye. Don't miss me please!

Renee; be happy please! (: I'm here for you if you need me. <3

5:48 PM

Mum took away my wireless card again. And now I can't go online. I know Renee's dying because of that. HAHAH! I tried using web messenger on my dad's computer, but stupid that stupid thing just can't work! :((((((( I miss king. I miss Renee. I miss Liko. I miss Jane. I miss Aswhin. I miss Jiayu. I miss Han Sen. Okay, I miss everyone! We're going to have the same fun on Monday again, right? (: Basketball and volleyball. YAYS. Oh ya, Lijia is very very very nice. I LIKE HER MAN! Okay, going off now. Don't miss me please!
To Liko: I'm back back back back back! :D I know you missed me.

6:35 PM

So many people cares. I'm touched, really. Went to the court again. I suck, yes. I know that. Went to j8 after Science and Maths paper with Jiayu, Liko, Renee, Calvin and Bao Hui. We saw king there. We were like so flabberghasted. We were so funny at that time. We took the escalator up, and we thought we were safe and that we wouldn't meet him again. Oh, no no no. We were so wrong. He had to come up, disrupt my thoughts and once again, make me feel like crying. I'm supposed to smile, okay?
Derrick was nice. He asked if I'm okay. (: He also asked if we were playing later. We denied it. But in the end, we told him the truth. I think he understands. I had to go to the court because only Cashmere has the ball. I was feeling quite decisive. Should I just leave for home? Then liko said, "you have to face up to your fears." So yeah, I went.
Jiayu and Bao Hui went up to take the ball from Cashmere and a while later, king came down. He went home and changed, and came down. Kuang Yong, Ashwin and Han Sen came too. Then it started to pour so heavily, so we went to the void deck to take shelter. Oh, the rain; such a beauty.
I joined Ashwin and Han Sen at the stairs. And I got so unbalanced lah! Sorry, sorry! Han Sen was nice enough to give my shoulder a squeeze even though I stinked. Hey, thanks man. I needed that. (: Felt okay later. They started to play basketball again. Yeah, then king smiled so often! I melted there and then. Wanted to cry again. =/ His smile... so adorable. He threw away that loner look, and broke into a smile. Like the rainbow after the rain. I'm mesmerised. How not to miss you when you're so charming.
Oh ya! Han Sen's attitude's so vast when he's playing basketball with Cheryl. Suddenly so gentleman and generous. LOL! Ashwin agreed! :D A while later, king left with Han Sen to buy drinks, and Ashwin and I went home. Today ain't that bad. (x
Goodbye now. Don't miss me please!

8:02 PM

Not to forget Calvin and Renee.
Renee's adorable please. She SMSed me telling me that my forest is there. aww..
I'm not mad at anyone.

5:51 PM

I got what I deserved for not exercising self discipline. I went to the court. I felt bad, I left, I cried. Played volleyball initially. Then felt very very very bad. I saw how they played. How glad he was to be playing with her. I couldn't help feeling jealous. I went to join Jane, Jiayu, Bao Hui and Derrick in basketball. I got hit by the ball, and I started tearing. I stopped myself just in time. I didn't want to attract attention. Renee and Liko asked me to play volleyball with them again. I couldn't help noticing how much he enjoyed playing volleyball without me. I couldn't... I couldn't... I couldn't stop my heart from breaking either. I'm gonna pick myself up. You're just not fated to be my boy. I made it clear, you made it even clearer. You just had to tell me. You don't like me, and never will. I'll keep to myself and save myself from the embarrassment. It's all too late. You won't visit my blog either. No idea why I'm typing this.
I couldn't take it any longer! I left with Pat to 7 eleven to buy milk. I cried on the way. I felt better after the milk. Food has a healing effect on yours truly. Took 88 to Toa Payoh, then walked around, looking for Pat's ten-days breakfast. Then went to the library to meet up with Crys and the gang. They were effin' noisy. We got scolded by the staff. I was utterly embarrassed by them. I was later approached by a nice lady to help find a book for her project. So sad we couldn't find it. She looked so disappointed. :(
We left the library after being scolded the second time. Went to watsons where I bought even more food to heal myself. Went home after that. Still feeling bad, but wayyyy better already.
Ashwin is nice! He promised to take care of me if I ever need his care. (: Oh well, off I go now. Goodbye. Don't miss me please.

8:14 PM

Went stalking around Ang Mo Kio with Jane, Liko, Ashwin and Han Sen.
Liko left us when we wanted to go to the court cos she wants to study. We took a taxi there, and the king's already there waiting. He looks arthurly adorable. HAHAH. I suck! I can't play vball well with him around. DAMN. I don't like the way he's able to reign over me. Stop it, Belle. It ain't healthy! Then played basketball. Accidentally hit Jane when snatching for the ball. I felt so guilty! I couldn't stop apologising. I left for home with Ashwin after the game, and the last thing I saw on the court was the king playing vball with Jane's group of girlfriends. I don't think I want to step on to the court again. TWO out of THREE times, I leave with a heavy heart, no idea whether to laugh or cry.
Laugh because I get to see king there, and cry because he most probably doesn't want me there. Ah, I'm back to the moaning me. I miss the Belle with the heck care attitude. At least I don't have to feel hurt.
Ms Lesa and Mrs Tan saw what I wrote on the piece of paper! I feel so pai seh. Doesn't matter, it ain't serious. (:
I feel darn it stupid. There's geog and chinese exam tomorrow. I haven't done any revisions yet. Hooray. I might end up without king, and with lousy results.
King just doesn't give a damn about me. Why am I going on and on about him? Okay, I shall stop now. Shall continue moaning tomorrow. (;
JA! :D

8:32 PM

Love; it's all about the heart aches and heart breaks.
I should be happy. (:
Went to mug with Ashwin, Wang Kee, Jane, Jiayu, Liko, Renee and Bao Hui.
Played volleyball after that. Not feeling good. I'm getting lousy in volleyball. Renee, Jiayu and Bao Hui left for home, then Arthur and Han Sen came to join us. Left for home at about 6.50.
Then, now I'm at home, feeling crappy. STUPID EXAMS. STUPID KING ARTHUR.
And I'm gone. Goodbye. Don't miss me please. (:

11:25 AM

I'm supposed to mug the whole day today. So I probably won't come online again today. Don't miss me too much please. Tag if you really can't bear the pain. :D HAH. Goodbye.

11:14 AM

I CONFESSED. Okay, I confessed, and it all lies upon you now.

9:09 PM

I've been dead for a while now, I am currently writing from heaven. (:

MYE; English papers completed. I'm afraid I didn't do well! I want to do well for English SO badly! I need help to pass Maths, Geog, Science and History! =/

Anyways, went to AMK central with Jane and Kuang Yong after school today, then walked around, decided to go to j8. Took 88 to j8 then ate at Food Junction, then a while later, Liko, Renee, Jiayu and Bao Hui came to meet us. First thing they did, steal my food! LOL! Nahh, asked nicely if they could have a bite from my chicken rice. (: Renee and Liko saw their friends at j8, so they joined their friends first and they said they would be back to join us.
Went to a nearby basketball court and saw Jane's friends there. They were playing, and Jane asked us to join, but we don't play with strangers, so yeah. We just watched. Okay, I lied. Jiayu made a lot of comments on Jane's friends. LOL. I just laughed. xP
After that, Jane's friends took a break, so we played. Okay, then Renee and Liko came. Renee and I just stood there like dummies. HAHAH! WE ROCK OKAY? (: We were playing halfway through, saying how much we want to play volleyball, then saw Derrick, Arthur and Cashmere walking to the court with VOLLEYBALL. Renee and I got so excited! Hahaha. Played for a very very very long time. Jiayu, Bao Hui and Kuang Yong left at about 5. The rest of us kept playing, then Renee left at about 6.
I FINALLY FOUND MY BALL SENSE! I played quite well today. Better than other days. So happy with myself. I know how to set ball already! But not very well, of course. I just learnt today, alright!
Liko and I played till about 7, then we left to buy drinks, then to the toilet. I was very urgent! =/ Then we left for home separately after that. Wanted to take taxi cos I was running late. But couldn't catch any, so took 88 to Toa Payoh and then 139 home instead. (:
OKAY, this is a very lousy post written in very bad English. I'm just too happy to care about anything now. I'm happy! I'm happy! I'm very happy! (:

9:53 AM

That was Chloe. I am revived just to type this. I shall go back to my coffin now. Goodbye. Don't miss me please. (:

9:46 AM

Great. My mum removed the wireless card from my laptop, and now I can't post or go online. If you want to know, I am currently posting from school's lab. While everyone else are editing photos on Adobe Photoshop, I am here posting, risking my life. Okay, too much of an exaggeration.
I so totally want to die lah. Exams are dawning, but I'm still here slacking and doing stupid things. In fact, I have an English paper tomorrow. DAMN IT. And I'm feeling so tired and sick. *pui!* I should prolly die now. I am squinting to look at things that's more than 1.3m away from me because I didn't wear my contact lens and I forgotten about my spectacles.
How lucky. I'm so so so so so happy. Lies.


Mwuahahaha! Anna is dead! I'm here to take over her blog! - smirks with an evil laughter-

I am an ass.

Call me doctor ass. (:

The smartest one. Right anna?!

5:46 PM

OH, YES! Third consecutive day meeting Ade, second one meeting Naipeng and the first meeting Zeus and Nadia to mug. Okay, the first day I seriously mugged, the second I slacked, and the third, it was just writing lame crap on papers.
Today, went to meet Zeus, Naipeng and Ade at shaw plaza, then after that, Nadia came to join us. We wanted to go up the cyber cafe, but there weren't sufficient computers for us to use, so we left for Spans Jom. Nadia left, and while the rest of them were bowling, I went to order fries and watched them.
About one and a half hour later, we left for Balestier's 7-eleven. Bought cup noodles and milk there, then left for the playground. Went there to eat, then it started raining when I was halfway through my noodles. Soon, it was raining too heavily, so I had to abort mission to eat in the rain and crowded together with the group.
Then after that we left that place to go to the HDB flat to play with the lift. LOL! Okay, we refused to grow up. HEH.
When we were about to leave for Ade's place, Naipeng found that his phone was missing. So we went back to look for it. Couldn't find it, so we left the place for shaw plaza instead. And now, I'm here blogging! AHAHA. Okay, this is a brainless post that led to nowhere. Shall go now. I'm going to play games! (:

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