Thursday, December 22, 2005
6:32 PM
RIGHT! I'm not accepted into Crescent Girls'. Instead, I got accepted into Ang Mo Kio which is my 2nd choice. Currently feeling quite down. Because, I wasn't accepted into a girls' school, and the moment I stepped out of school, I saw him. I thought I could bear no hard feelings for him, but I remembered him calling my Mum names. And my "so-called" group of friends, just couldn't read my facial expression, and all gathered around to play with his hair. I saw, and felt my stomach lurch forward, threatening to throw everything inside out. And for the rest of the day, I couldn't be happy, until after Emily, Siying and I left Pizza Hut for Spans Jom and met with the rest at the bowling alley, that I felt better. Entertained myself with the thought that 2 (in my sense) suckers are a couple. Yes, and bitched a little with this person, and that person. Well, it's not exactly senseless, you know? I got proof. He told someone that he got a new girlfriend, but couldn't let that someone know who it is. Because he promised the girl not to. And a week ago, that girl was telling another friend that he was funny, and it appeared that she mentioned it in a slip of the tongue, because, she tried to change the subject as fast as she could. And then when she saw him today, she looked like God just gave her the most precious gift in the world. (EEEWWW! I can't believe I wrote that down.) SO, yeah. But, whatever! Then we all left for the playroom. ((: CHILDISH! But we aren't exactly grown-up, are we? Did loads of crazy things there. HEH! About 2 or 3 hours later, we splitted up. Crystal, Emily, Sying and I went to Shaw Plaza because KH wanted to pass Emily her present. Spent about 20 mins there, then left for home.
Confessions of a broken heart:
SORRY! I tried to be nice, I tried to be as nice as I could manage. I tried to be happy, too. But to no avail. I thought I could forgive, I thought I could forget, but it just isn't going the way I wanted it to. I want to be kind to everyone, be able to love everyone indifferently. But, fate worked against me, this is who I turned out to be. I'm sorry. I'll try harder, I promise. Cheer me on, people! It's going to be a looonggg journey. Take care, yes? I'll update tomorrow.