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Tuesday, December 19, 2006
4:13 PM

& in my head, I'm thinking how beautiful this would have seem if a photo was taken. But decided that it's impossible and some things in life are better left the way it is, rather than trying so hard to grasp unto; trying to make a memory out of it lest it's forgotten. The way nature has is - not trying at all.


Monday, December 18, 2006
6:43 PM

Here to give a quick update and to upload photos.
That is, if the internet actually works.
It's been opposing against me the whole morning, so I gave up updating until now.
I watched eragon yesterday, and I think it's super nice.
I don't mind watching it again and again. (:

Aaaaand, peachie just hung up on me not long ago, and it happens that I'm not the only one letting my thoughts run wild this holiday. This holiday really gets the better of me, making me older in the mind department. Like, am I not old enough already?! I've been thinking about getting married, getting pregnant, giving birth, life after getting married, raising up my children, and even death. It's scaring the hell out of me.

I don't think I'm the one to settle down with children and all, and what scares me most is the process of giving birth. Imagine your vagina stretching, enlarging and when the baby comes out, it will get all wrinkly because it doesn't contract fast enough. I can even visualise the whole process, it's as if I've seen it all, when actually I haven't.

There's also the life you have to lead after having a family. My parents' life revolves around work and spending time with us, I'm thinking if I don't get married, and don't have children, what kind of life I will have. I know there will be backstabbing while working, because I've worked before, and heard my parents talking about it. But if that's so, how can you find true friends and even if you do, what if they aren't afraid of settling down and giving birth? Who will be able to spend time with me then?

When I grow old, there wouldn't be children to entertain me, solely because I don't have the courage to give birth to one. I'll then slowly die of loneliness... Then comes the issue of death. What will happen after I die? What will be the cause of my death? Ever since the stomach virus episode, I've been wishing that I don't have to die that way because that time, I almost thought of killing myself there and then. Yes, I was in that much pain - enough to just give up my life.

See, told you my mind is growing damn old. Sigh, sorry. I don't think I'll be uploading the photos today. One day, I will.

Peachie, please take time off your busy schedule to go out with me. Please please.


Saturday, December 16, 2006
7:23 PM

TRIP TO SENTOSA with parents, sister and maid!
Eh, okay. I'm lazy to type so much, but it was a nice trip. (:
Shall let the photos do the talking.
These are only partial of the photos, will upload more later when I'm using my laptop [currently using mummy's HP pavilion dv2000!].

PHOTO


While waiting for the tram.



Rawr, there's something wrong with the connection, so that's all that I can upload now. I will upload more later.


Wednesday, December 13, 2006
10:54 AM

Aye, I have nothing to blog about. Soooooo, I shall blog again when I have inspiration.

Sunday, December 10, 2006
8:41 PM

edit
I've got a new haircut and got my hair treatment. (:
I'm super happy with the treatment, but I look super toot now with the new haircut.
Hope my hair will grow back before school reopens, or else I'm going to stab myself in the heart and hope I die.
I upgraded my memory card to 1GB, but now I have trouble with the dictionary! ):
It says that the word information is missing! I'm devastated. T^T
I think I have to go to a nokia care center to have it installed again and hope it doesn't cost a single cent, or else I will have to stab myself in the heart yet again.
Rah, okay. I guess I'm quite happy these days. (:
I want to see peachie soon. Haven't seen her in 78532965 years.
But no, I don't miss her. xP
Because I miss luo mi ou. happy, luo mi ou? (:

Saturday, December 09, 2006
12:09 PM



With the one who cannot be seen yesterday.

I'm super lazy to talk about yesterday, but there's actually not much to say because we didn't do much. We only went out for a mere 3 hours or so and then went back to her house to rot.

THE END

80 does wonders! ♥


Friday, December 08, 2006
10:54 AM

Going out with serene to do christmas shopping for each other and mummy's present. (:
I want my shades! (x
I wanna take loads of photos with them.
80 does wonders with photos I tell you.
LOVE LOVE LOVE ♥80.
The best thing that ever happened to me. (:

Thursday, December 07, 2006
6:08 PM

HELLO (:
FIRST OFF, MUST THANK EMILY FOR BRINGING ME OUT. [expression: see photo below]



Met emily at 12.10, then we took bus to toa payoh, and we went to popular to get her assessment book, then to the library to return her brother's books.

Then, we walked around for a while and met her boyfriend. Wah, he made us walk a lot okay. That blur block made us walk around the MRT station when he's actually upstairs. Ayeeeee, so blurrrr.

After we finally met, we took MRT to plaza singapura to meet yuting and isabel (or isabell, or isabelle, not sure.)

They wanted to lunch at pizza hut, so I went along though I've already had spagghetti at home. Just had a cup of water there. :D
Took photos of emily and her boy. She's damn unglam lah.



Her boy's very shyyyy and super lame and childish. Shh, secret.
But quite nice I guess, emily's expenses were all paid by him. Yuting forced me to take neoprints, as in really pulled me in and held me there you know! Plus she made emily's boy pay. HAHAHAHAHA. xP

We walked (again) allllll the way from heeren to orchard MRT station. Then we bid farewell to yuting and isabel (or isabell, or isabelle) at toa payoh, and they went on to bishan.

We took 139 to my place and emily's boy sent her home. (:
Sorry for giving such vague details, I'm lazy to elaborate, maybe yuting's version would be more detailed. xD

I'll compensate with photos kay!



We saw this cute christmas tree cum fountain on our way to heeren. (:
That little bit of hair and nose belongs to yuting. Heh.




Them decorating neoprints.





He he, I tried taking a proper photo of them, but blur block refuse to, so I started snapping photos of him.

& since he doesn't like his photo being took so much, I did him a favour and cropped his photo. :D



Alright, this marks the end of my post. (:

Tuesday, December 05, 2006
3:29 PM

I realised that I've missed out on a lot after I stopped going for training. ):
Did I blog about this before already?
Don't know.
I've drifted away from my team mates, my friends and all...
What if everything's not going to be the same any more?
I hope we'll still stay as a clique. ><
Okay, whatever.
I am not emo. (:

2:34 PM

Aye, growing up scares me. The thought of getting old, being pregnant, and having all kinds of responsibilities really freaks me out. Seriously blows me away man. ):
I was reading the sec 2 science textbook, and thought that maybe hey, sexual reproduction ain't boring. So I started flipping through, and the contents are really serious and all... Then imagination runs wild, and I think I might die quite early. =/ *gulps*

Aye, compared to that, reality's more harsh. Mummy might lose her job. ): Wah, without mummy's income, I think we have to scrimp and save already... Not that I want her to suffer in her current company, I know she really hates her boss and work is really killing her. So I hope another company will take her, and hopefully the pay will be the same and the bosses there are nice. (:

Yeah, okay. Guess that's all.

p.s ; 80 rocks!

Monday, December 04, 2006
8:41 PM

Good news! I got annabelle_1993@hotmail.com back. xD I cracked my secret question. YAYYYY. I LOVE MEEEEE.
& cheryl darlinggg, please don't be mistaken. I replied your email already.

10:59 AM

I take back what I said. I won't do everything to get 80. Getting the stomach virus is so bad. ):
I got 80 yesterday, and the vomiting and stomach aches got very bad, so I had to go to the doctor's for a jab(AGAIN), then had to take medicine.
But it's the aftermath that's worse. I couldn't get to sleep, because I was very restless and worried that I'll vomit. So yeah, I barely kept my eyes closed for 5 minutes and I was turning and tossing around again.
It's really damn bad. Please God, be kind to me and take the virus away already. It's so bad that your humble servant is so battered that she cannot serve you. T^T
Sigh, and I'm still feeling so hyper again. Not those happy kind of hyper, mind you. It's those restless want to clench your teeth and grind it kind of restless. Plus I'm breathing very hard and fast, so my body's getting very numb and all.
Pray for me please, people. It sucks to be sick. ):

Friday, December 01, 2006
10:59 AM

I realised that Filipinos have very big eyes.
& just to let you get grossed out a little, I vomited. Yellow substances came out even though I had nothing but water and ginger inside the water. So next time if you feel like vomiting, please have a cup of ginger water. But uh, my tummy's still churning and I have a freaking bad headache.

9:15 AM

Hello all, wanted to blog last night, but couldn't find time because I had to watch tv. Heh, okay. So now I have a life again, but it's soon going to be ruined because of my erupting tummy. It's been cramping since last night, and I feel quite horrible now.
Nonetheless, I must keep blogging to ensure that my readers will stay on to read. Tsk, but I think people tend to visit my blog more often when I attached eh. Sharing life with another person is more interesting is it? Or do I have to post nude photos of myself on the blog, since that's what made certain bloggers shoot to fame. Nah, annabelle don't be stupid.

Went out with peach yesterday. We wore the same thing. Fund fiesta t-shirt, fbt shorts and slippers. Hahaha, people mistook us as twins you know! Scary. We walked around toa payoh first, then I bought two sticks of cheese tofu-s and a stick of sausage. (which I suspect it's the cause of my tummy ache. MAYBE I'M SUFFERING FROM FOOD P-P-P-POISONING!)
After that, we went to shaw plaza to watch movie. We watched Deck The Halls and had the whole theatre to ourselves. So we could talk as loud as we wanted to. We exchanged slipper in there, and we ended up wearing mismatched slippers. One side's mine, one side's hers. We wore it all the way to the bus terminal where she almost went home that way. Daaaaamn gay.

Aye, I feel like vomiting now. >< Erlack, I think I got my sister's virus. She had the same symptoms as me the day before yesterday, except that she puked everything out and had to go to the doctor's. Super not feeling well now. x(

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